Sin Hui

My Truth? Your Truth? Who has the Real Truth?

2012-01-10T20:39:00.001+08:00

Realising I have a big load of PBL assignment to read, I chose to sit here to write something.

I realised I have abandoned my blog for a long time, not because I am really that busy, but simply because of I am obeying the Principle of Conservation of Energy which will be:

“Energy is not destroyed or either created, but preserved or converted into other form”.

Why do I say so?

The initial energy when I reach India when I first came here have stopped me from blogging, and this energy or stopping force is not destroyed or disappeared but simply converted into procrastination and giving self-excuses that I cannot do certain things.

As it gets on day after day, it became a common way to carry out my life and so I do not ever question whether am I really that busy to not update this blog.

It just goes on until I have time to made reflection and convert the energy into a kinetic force to move me.

And so I am here….

We do such things many times in life.

For example, we always feel we cannot do certain subject in our studies no matter how hard we try or even to the smallest thing in life such as facing difficulty to talk to a particular person.

Why?

This is what I call the culture of the mind.

When we have to attempt or carry out anything, when condition is suitable and it arises, we put up a perception or we group certain things under certain category.

For example, A is good and so B is bad, A is nice and so B is ugly, A is hard and so B is easy.

Some think the above is longer some think it is shorter, but mostly that think it is the same

It does not matter what they think, the point is people made different perceptions upon their conditions that had arised

That perception will then be kept in our mind, and we hold on to it without even any questions to them.

That perception before even we realise, become a system of belief in us.

That system of belief before we realise again, make us thought it was a truth.

Everyone is seeking for Truth… Everyone claim to have the Best Truth… However, how true is Truth? Are they true?

As we accepted the truth, it became our practise and soon it became part of us- as I will call it as a habit.

And anything that go against that habit will be taken as WRONG and NOT THE TRUTH.

Because of that, we resisted our self from doing things we think we cannot do.

Because of that, we see certain things as truth when they might not be actually.

Because of that, people that do anything that is not align to our truth, we call them disobedient or unknowledgeable.

Because of that, we dislike people, we discriminate people- to whoever we think that have against “our self-perceived truth”.

Therefore, we find this set of judgement within the society among the diverse community.

Therefore, in our daily cultivation, if we are not aware we are developing the resistance to see the real truth by letting the mind to accept the un-truth then sooner or later, our eyes will be filled by the dust even without realising.

What we belief and undertake might not be the real truth, it is just our mind projection.

We see who we are, we are who we see

What should I do to prevent that then?

Unlearn, relearn and learn is the ultimate process I must learn.

Belief that nothing is permanent and when the time comes for its cessation, contemplation has to be made, rather than feeling upset and revengeful.

To only do that, we need to let go and hold nothing in life no matter how much we think we need it.

Letting go is not the end of what belong to us…

Letting go is the beginning of our ability to control what we had

This includes letting go to what I am saying now.

Whatever I am saying now, you must also let go and do not hold it strongly.

Why do I say so?

In Buddhism, it thought us that the Noble Truth is not to have desire.

However, not to have desire is a kind of desire.

Therefore, having no desire by also not having the desire to not have desire is the actual ultimate goal we try to attain.

Same goes to what is happening here, preaching the truth of not holding any truth strongly so we can see the truth is including to let go of this current truth.

If people have always wondered what the Middle Path is, this is what the Middle Path means.

To keep yourself in the Middle Path, trying it too hard even for the Middle Path will make you not in the Middle Path anymore; therefore the real Middle Path is the ultimate stillness of mind or in simple- REAL MIDDLE.

Middle Path

Therefore, practice anything we want in life with simplicity and balance, then we can see this world a simpler and in a more harmony way.

Free ourself from perception, free ourself from ideas as how the Great Tao Master had beautifully said to begin Tao Te Ching and how I will use it to beautifully end my piece:

The tao that can be told

is not the eternal Tao

The name that can be named

is not the eternal Name.

The unnamable is the eternally real.

Naming is the origin

of all particular things.

Free from desire, you realize the mystery.

Caught in desire, you see only the manifestations.

…

Therefore the Master

acts without doing anything

and teaches without saying anything.

Things arise and she lets them come;

things disappear and she lets them go.

She has but doesn't possess,

acts but doesn't expect.

When her work is done, she forgets it.

That is why it lasts forever.

May all be well and happy!

Be Real for Once

2011-09-10T12:00:00.002+08:00

I used MSN for the first time when I was in Form 3.

Then, I explore Friendster in Form 4.

Following, I started to write blogs after I finished my SPM.

I have my Facebook account when I was in my 2nd semester of A Levels.

Then, I have Twitter in my 3rd semester.

Until today, these are also the social network I have ever committed and still active in it except Friendster.

How much I have used this as a tool of communication?

I would say very little.

Firstly, I do not update often.

Secondly, I usually do not have that allocation of time once academic sessions begin.

However, the root cause of all the reasons above is because I do not indulge into all this social networking because I think it make people lose their real nature of communication.

Dr Wee, an old Free that we have once interviewed in the magazine, said she dislike those applications because people fantasize on their personality when they do not be like themselves.

I agree.

We can see a person who talks so little can be a very sociable person in the web.

Meanwhile, a bad-tempered guy can be an extremely soft and gentle spoken person in the virtual world.

We can see new-made friendship between two people got so close in the cyber world, but when they meet each other in real world, they are nothing less than strangers.

We can see how a long-term ever after relationship can actually begin just by a chat box.

We can see how people develop ego because the barrier of communication contact is infinite which will definitely not possible in face-to-face talk.

The art of language of face-to-face is more meaningful because people become who they are rather then what they want.

However, nobody will ever deny this technology advancement has provided us an ease on sending out information with such a short spent of time as what I am also making use to now.

Besides, it gives a chance to those who really prefer to write than to talk to socialise with others.

There are indeed benefits to the usage.

Although this summary might be an oversimplification, but if we really think deeper, do you think social network has actually made human relationship getting closer or further?

it is your call.

For myself, there will be no escape to this advancement. But, I thought I have been always the same at here (virtual networking) and at real.

May all be happy and enjoy to be in contact with friends and family for real!!!

03 september 2011

2011-09-07T20:33:00.001+08:00

I vow to detach myself,

Because only detachment I see permanence,

Because I do not gain you, neither do I lost you,

You are always there for me.

I vow to let you go,

Because only letting go I see my freedom and your freedom,

Because I do not have to hold on to you, neither do you have to hold on to anything,

We are eternally there for each other.

Yes…

I am sad and I am mournful,

But I know nothing stays forever,

Even the fragrance of flower will come to decay.

But,

With the love and care when you are alive at your time,

You have shown this is not just a mortal relationship,

It is a tie that has been fated and penetrated the nature of impermanence,

It is eternal.

With that,

I have no fear anymore,

Because you are actually still there,

As always,

In my heart.

To me that is still alive in this world,

I vow to live in every present moment,

Because only in the present moment I see myself alive for real,

Because I am not trap in the delusions of past and future,

I am here…at NOW

May you be well and happy,

May all sentient beings be well and happy.

“If there is a cure when problem comes,
What need is there for being sad,

And if no cure is to be found,

What use is there in sorrow.”

07 September 2011

RIVER and MIND

2011-08-10T07:51:00.001+08:00

The mind is supposed to be like the river.

As how the water remain so calm on the surface although the unseen is the current flowing below it,

Just like the mind.

The mind is supposed to be like the river,

As it passes through every stream and then letting it go as the water flows on,

Just like the mind.

The mind is supposed to be like the river,

Allowing the mud and sand to settle down so that it remains clear,

Just like the mind.

In any ways the river is not doing it,

When the water hit and splash by a strong uncontrolled current taking away its calmness,

When it is clogged or blocked thus not flowing,

When the mud is stirred up making the water cloudy,

The flow will be disrupted,

It is not a real river anymore,

Just like the mind.

I can be what type of river I want,

The calm or the disrupted one,

I can be what type of mind I want,

The peaceful or the disturbing one.

May all be cultivating the peaceful mind!

May all be well and happy!

-The mind is everything, what you think you become.-

-Buddha

-River and mind-

7 july 1975

2011-08-02T17:46:00.003+08:00

In just lesser than a week, we will see a transition of power from the out-going committees to the in-coming committees.

Every year, I will have an agenda for the society.

The first year after I left, I stress on the importance of members in actually being the real power that control the society.

Members are the real power of the society

They are those that play the most vital role in maintaining the stability, performance and excellence of the society.

In other words, committees are just the mould, but members are the product made.

The second year, I stress on how important for Junior Coms to be innovative and creative in their work in order to improve the society.

Besides, all are reminded again one of the most important element of an organisation which is to remember that we need to do what we want others to do and never ask members to do anything that we will never want to do when we are in their shoe.

It is one of the famous line I always say: “A boss tells us what to do, a leader shows that it can be done”.

The next year, the agenda diverted to unity between Juniors and Seniors. It seems there is some gap due to dissatisfaction here and there.

However, it is not worth mentioning anymore, as today the Seniors and Juniors are working closely enough, or in fact, I will say more than that.

Now, we are entering another new year. Although it has not even started, I can feel that, if we are not aware about it, sooner or later, I am worry it will turns out to be true.

I rather hope the committees to prove me wrong than to see it becomes a problem that we have to seek for a solution.

What I am trying to point out is nothing new or difficult to understand. It can be also one of the main ideas I have always stress, which is Leadership through Example.

To define it clearer, leadership through example can be understood as leaders will always act as a role model to the members, therefore, what the leaders do, will seems to be something right to do to the members, and they will also do it.

Therefore, if the committees are pursuing righteousness, then righteousness will be reflected In members, it goes the same if the leaders display bad examples in them, then bad examples are what we will see in the entire society.

This is actually the simplest yet can be the hardest thing to do.

However, it should be clearly noted that this is not something created or caused solely by the current committees; it is more of an inheritance, which I wouldn’t deny if it even existed during my time.

Therefore, I am afraid if the higher authorities still do not take drastic actions, Unit will be like a food chain. As time passes by and we are climbing higher up the trophic level, what left is the little proportion of the original cake once we have.

If this is going to be a reality, then all the past achievements will rather just remain as a history.

As how we can always hear from Cantonese dramas (after translation):

“We, as the current generation will be a disgrace to the ancestors and have no pride to meet them.”

All this can surely be seen right in front our eyes now with the declining of serious matters such as first aid, participation and qualities of performance for anything with regard to competition.

As ex-seniors, it will be inappropriate for us to continually interfering and disrupting, no matter how helpful the suggestions and comments. This is for the sake of respecting the current committees as well as not to disturb the stability within the Unit.

However, in the name of Unit, this is a very sincere reminder I can give. Especially, when it is written here…

Who reads?

Who cares?

Maybe, it is a personal piece of writing for relieve, that is if Unit is worse, at least I have reminded before, if Unit is better, then that shows the committees manage to escape the catastrophe well. Either way, I am not losing anything.

For those going to be proudly sticking up the 3 stripes (and with an extra crown), what have you got to do when you guys are in power?

Symbol of power and responsibility

In this new month of August,

We see the end of July

And September is coming soon.

In this present moment,

We see how we are made of from the past,

As how it will then affect the future.

If we can understand the past, present and future,

We will understand,

They are all are the same and inter-related.

As how the past committees,

The present committees,

And the future committes,

Are connected.

Our actions yesterday

have caused our today

and will affect our tomorrow.

However,

As we can only control the present moment,

Let us ensure our today is going to be

A memorable past for tomorrow,

So that by tomorrow it will be a memorable today.

For those going to be appointed,

It will be one of my most exciting and proudest moment,

Hope the new fresh team will bring a change,

And bring the society to the best level ever before.

May all be well and happy…

(This has been written almost 2 weeks ago, therefore some would have known about this. Hope it remain relevant and readable to all)

When Life is Alive

2011-07-22T09:00:00.001+08:00

I remember I did a post in my room in Cendana before I left at here, as the mark of the end of life as a Junior in Cendana and also the sign of beginning as a Senior in Cemara.

My first outing in Cendana to KL

Last outing and also the last picture =)

But how about now? I had even finish my term in Cemara, and of course, in INTEC as well.

However, the reason to write this piece of sharing after for so long is because life in INTEC has been greater than arrangement of words.

Life in INTEC has been greater than arrangement of words.

-Photo credits to etchwa-

So, I wrote and then I alter..then I delete later on…

This happen for a few times..

Only until today, I got my realisation…

Why am I writing this for?

For others to admire this great piece of summary by being as descriptive as possible…

To include as many people and events as possible to let who and who to felt excited…

Those are actually the few reasons of me writing the wrote-alter-deleted posts initially.

Later on, I just realise it is so hard to do something and produce something to satisfy others especially to get the “LIKES “of everyone.

(These are some of the reasons why I rarely feel of posting in Facebook, as I felt the sense of craving for “LIKES” is so high that we defeated the purpose of writing.)

At last, I decided my only purpose to write is to note things I would remember the most about Cemara for me to look back again on this journey perhaps many many years later…

The hardest and greatest thing I learn is to know ourselves better first before we even want to learn about others.

I observe how competition happens around me, or sometimes is not even really competition, is more of a prey-predator relationship. Those who strong not only outweigh the weak, but even have the tendency to destroy the weaker ones for their own needs and stability within the territory.

“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond the winning.”
-Lao Tzu-

Therefore, if we always want to look left and right around us, we will fall into this trap of delusion and we will get into the endless merry-go-round of this life’s survival-of-the fittest.

Those who win and lose are definitely in a different status of achievement, but they share the commonness of feelings which is unsatisfactory.

Those who win will never feel enough but to win more or else they might also have fear if they cannot maintain this championship.

Whereas, those who lose will feel that they do not deserve that defeat and so struggle to win next time.

Either way, they get into mental illness- depression!

Depression will arise…if we cannot let it go!

However, when we just ask questions such as ,

“what that actually give us the actual happiness”

“what do we really want from here”

then we will realise more of our responsibilities and purpose why we are actually here.

Can we hold the burden of the world when we can’t even hold on our life firmly?

Yet,I am not denying the truth which is we will never escape from competition and survival for life, this is a part of the nature.

But, what we can do is to stay above of this delusion so that our mind will be in the right state, then we can control our life better, rather letting life to control us.

To do this is stay clear and empty the mind, then peacefulness will be overwhelmingly full filling into the empty space.

The lotus will never run away from living on the mud, in fact it is the essential of its life. But, it can rise above the mud and bloom amazingly. Same to life, we can never escape from the realistic competition, but we can rise above this illusion of mind to see the truth

Maybe this is the reason why I just archive little in life.

A contented man with no big ambition to change the world but only myself

Because every time when I can change myself, I felt there is nothing anymore I need to change in the world…

Just enough for me and others,

Just live in the present moment and aware of every drops of life,

This is freedom, this is Nirvana…

I hope this will serve as a good reminder when I study elsewhere, when conditions will be harder and more demanding. If I don’t, no problem, I just have to open back this piece of words and remind myself again =)

“A photo is a faithful portrait
The smile that friendship shares
To add its sunshine and to show
That someone really cares.”

Author- unknown

p.s A young friend voice out that he suffer from “pening” when he reads here due to too many words, so some pictures this time. =)

What my Mind is, I am

2011-07-12T21:57:00.001+08:00

Oh Lord,

When I touch the Earth,

I understand the dust on this land are swept away from one place to the other,

As how beings on this world come and go.

Impermanence.

Oh Lord,

When I feel my heart,

I understand every beat is so different and changing,

As if every life of mine is renew by each pulse of beat.

Impermanence.

Oh Lord,

When I feel for the breeze of air passing through me,

I understand that non-existence and existence comes together,

As how sadness and happiness arises and cease along with time.

Impermanence.

Oh Lord,

When I realise what is there is enough for me,

It is just for me to feel it and understand it,

With a simple and clear mind,

Nothing to cling onto and attach to,

Then my mind is peaceful and contented.

Permanence.

Happy as who I am.

Don’t be anyone.

Seek for nothing.

Then the mind is full.

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

The Exception

2011-07-04T09:19:00.001+08:00

I have never spoken like this to anyone before,

Except you,

I have never been treated so mindful like anyone before,

Except you,

For that, you should know that you are just a special one.

I love all my friends, so shall I not discriminate one from the other,

All are the same, as all are important to me,

But as what you have heard from me before,

I know you know that you have a strong position of friendship in my heart,

Let our sketches of memories,

Since how long we can ever remember,

To stay within us until the day that only God knows.

My friend,

For you and me,

Too little that need to be said,

As much has been done together,

Between I and you.

If I have never tell you before,

Let me tell you now,

I have no regrets,

For the days gone past.

As who I am tomorrow is who you make me are today.

God bless You.

What is Done is Finished

2011-06-23T11:07:00.001+08:00

Few more days, examination will come to an end. Unbelievable, we are all going to successfully went through that extreme mentally challenging mind-game having the evolutionary race with Edexcel.

As they put up a natural selection on us by modifying the examination questions on concept-led-approach, those students with that alleles that have the characteristic to conceptually understood the subject survive without problems, while some who don’t got to be selected against.

After all, this is examination, there will be winners, while those who don’t, are definitely not losers, but just that they got to be comparatively lower as there are people better than them.

Therefore, those who usually felt sad and disappointed after an exam, is not necessarily because they did not do well, it is because they thought to themselves that comparatively they are not doing well than others, so they do suffer.

As I said on that, I must admit that this must be something for me to let go also if I do not want to suffer for this ‘comparison’ game’ anymore.

Anyway, I am not writing about Comparing Others with Yourself but it is about Letting Go

It is time to let go of this luggage of responsibility- an academic commitment that I have taken on my shoulder for two years. There will be more to come, but for now, it’s time to let go.

But what let go means?

If you have thought this…

Letting go does not mean stop working as we have come to an end. It is not that. We never know where is the end, not even for us to decide whether our path of responsibility has ended.

But instead, letting go means saying and understand in ourself that it is finished. We have finished.

“ But wait!”

“What do you mean finished?”

“You are having your university life coming, then you might want to study further, and then as a doctor, you are going to study..study..study till you are dead, and how dare you say that it is finished. It will never finish!”

Well, my friend, what is done is finished!

In life, we have been always searching for that something that will never be enough. We never think we have enough time in a day, we never think we have did enough for the day, we never think what we have got is enough for ourselves.

Instead, we crave…

We want more…

Though, it does not always mean greed, especially when what we are pursuing are for good means.

Examples, it can be feeling not enough on helping others or even on sharing merits, or it can be not feeling enough to make this life a better one.

However, in any ways also, feeling insufficient and having the desire to grief for more will only cause no-peace, sufferings and not having our life alive.

We choose the way for ourself. What we think we become. If we never think it is finished, so it is.

Having the courage to stop does not mean anything about us as a failure or an undetermined person.

It is a self-loving, peace-searching and inner-joyfulness in one’s mind when they felt contented, felt blessed, and felt satisfied about who they are and what they have did at the end of the day- the day when they said it is finished.

Emptiness is full, full is emptiness,

Emptiness and full, both made up as one.

What we can see, feel, touch and hear,

Are perceptions, and all this are made up of conditions.

When the conditions arise, they exist,

When the conditions cease, they decay,

What makes conditions is the mind,

If we can control the mind, we control everything,

If our mind is controlled by desire,

We will gain temporary freedom- freedom of desire,

If our mind can control our desire,

We will gain eternal freedom- freedom from desire.

Letting go is not a termination.

Letting go is a liberation.

May all be well and happy!

Let my mind be put back into stillness- by letting go.

In gratitude to the teachings to fellow Sanghas,

With respect and anjali.

Contentment- when you let go and see nothing as self

A Temporary Home

2011-06-18T10:51:00.001+08:00

Weeks ago, I was staying at my aunt’s place in Cheras.

All thanks to her for having the kindness to let me stay there for so long throughout my study leave period.

However, as I thought I will be merely just studying to prepare for my examination, I have experience another feeling of family-ness in this immediate family of mine.

Before I get to know my uncle better, he used to be a fierce looking man who talks no more than little and that let me always have a phobia when I see him during those days when I visit the family during holiday.

However, this time around, things have been pretty much different. He loves sharing stories and stuff he had went through in life. He loves food, so mostly I will be listening to him sharing about ways to cook including where will be the right place to buy all those ingredients and good food around KL.

My aunt has been the person I talk to the most, as only she that able to understand Hokkien, as the rest will just usually stare at me curiously puzzling what she and me is talking about.

However, there is always an alternative of language with my other cousins.

Some are working some are studying. Those working I see them twice a week, at most, those studying, I only got to mingle around with them during weekends.

However, I will say, most of the time I will spent the time with my he-cousin (got such thing?), as we usually spend time playing sports during the evening (Yea! Better believe it, I do play sports)

I felt sorry sometimes; do not know whether, if he ever felt frustrated playing badminton with me, as the frequency of me missing the shuttle-cock is higher than whenever I can hit it.

But, he always seems to never mind and offer to play again the next day. That actually makes me determined to play better although my skills is still nowhere near satisfactory level.

During the few weeks stay, I learn some custom or better called as eating etiquette such as calling the elders first, strictly being reminded to stay on the table until all are done eating, eating at a more (and more) gentle way without those noise coming out from the chewing and most importantly, a strong display of filial piety

During the few weeks stay, I got to also know more of my cousins (yea, I admit I know them little before that

Example, when my cousin seems not being very happy with things people more elder than him is doing, he knows what is ‘silence is golden’ and just kept patient, although his true nature is a person of bad-tempered and can be really nasty with things he despise off. Don’t you think young people like this are getting lesser nowadays?

Running a family is nothing different from running a government. A fair and justice government with give-and-take policy between the people and the ruler is what that that brings prosperity and peace.

All this blessing must be of good karma done by all of them and with great teachings from both of their parents. Sadhu!

Exam is going to end soon. Good times with friends are finishing too. But sweet memories will never fade away.

Oh Boddhisatta Avalokitesvara,

In your manifestation of compassion and mercifulness,

Bless the family of mine,

Bless the family of all my relatives and friends,

Bless the family of all sentient beings,

Bless all those without a family to be also filled with love of family-hood,

Let all beings to cultivate the values of love to let it flow freely in their home,

As the love of universe can only begins from home,

Let no quarrels and dispute to divide them,

As quarrels can only bring negative afflictions and bad energy,

But if quarrels are unavoidable,

Let the strong feelings of love to be more overwhelming,

As nothing can be greater than the power of true love and compassion.

May all be well and happy.

My own words of filial piety: Take good care of yourself, first, then only you can look after them well.

Take One Step at A Time

2011-06-03T13:22:00.002+08:00

I was searching for some Buddhist music yesterday and impatiently without waiting for them to finish loading, I go for the next one and without realising, I have open so many tabs with each one loading at an extreme slow speed.

As I continue to add more tabs as I was so excited to find so many of the music I have never downloaded before, those half-way loading music started to sound and all this supposed-to-be harmonious rhyme of music became a pain to the ear when all are played together at different tune.

A spark of mindfulness at that moment suddenly realised me that even if we are given the best conditions including luxurious food, great friends or even with good livelihood, we will never appreciate and enjoy that gift-of-lift if we continue to search for one.

In other words, searching and seeking for our desire in life will only cause endless desire, and even if after successfully achieving all such desire, it will never reward us with true satisfaction and joyfulness.

Desire is like running in a circle, it never ends and we ended up no where too

Instead, chasing for more and more will cause further disappointment in oneself, when the nature of the reality is all the perfection and beauty we are searching for has been right in front of us.

However, misunderstood and ambitious people might say that this thought are of fatalism and will only means that human will never be progressive but forever staying at the same spot in life admiring what is there and never going for improvement.

In Buddhism, we must learn to differentiate the physical development and the mind or mental development.

Physical development are improvement that we can experience with our 5 senses, we touch money, we hear successful stories, we hold on a trophy of championship, we smell on the perfume that gives great scene and pleasure to the nose, and we satisfied the taste buds with the best food in life.

All this are worldly development and undeniably we can improve them and make them better by working hard as time goes on.

However, the nature of those physical development is impermanence and there are times when greed, ungratefulness and selfishness overwhelming, then this is when we witness war, disagreement, competition for unnecessary reasons just to claim for more honour and power to be bestowed on them, simply to show I am better than you.

Physical development with no proper understanding is what causing fight for power and name

At the same time, (Yes! It is at the same time as physical development is inseparable and must go along with mind development), mind development is the cultivation of one’s thoughts and understanding mainly on the Right Effort, Right Mindfulness and Right Concentration. In short, mind development is about seeing the reality and really understand the nature of the reality.

Therefore, we are not actually surrendering to fate as what others claim us as having the no desire to run faster than others, to stand taller than others and to be better than others as we have something more important to be better than which is to never stop cultivating our mind till liberation is gained at any possible time.

Meanwhile, we are not stop from achieving what we should in this world: to get a good degree and starting to have a good career, have a nice house and car(s) and having a good family till the end. This are all the physical development that must go along to fulfil the basic needs of life and continue living.

However, all this must be done with the right understanding or with clear reason in us that why are we doing all this without being shadowed by illusions and imaginations. If all what we are seeking, is what we felt as sufferings and pain, then perhaps we are improving on our physical development only but our mental development are in a poor state.

Therefore, I, personally, disagree with clash of word development and religion, as they go along together, and both keep balance on one another. Both must exist.

All in all, what we know is what we have understood. If we can understand and feel the real nature of the reality, we can know more about our life and ourselves. When we have felt the truth, then we can free ourselves and not being trap in this illusive world anymore.

As once said, Nirvana is not all about attainment, is a pathway.

May all of us can touch the real truth, taste the nectar of Dharma, listen to the Enlightened One’s teaching and achieve our eternal freedom.

Brothers and sisters,

May I be free from harm and danger,

May you be free from harm and danger,

May all be free from harm and danger,

May all sentient beings be free from harm and danger,

May all be well and happy.

A message from Buddha:

Now

2011-04-09T21:16:00.001+08:00

Now, how do I control others so they wont hurt me?

If you were to make me angry, it’s me who will get angry.

If you were to make me sad, it’s me who will get sad.

If you were to hurt me, it’s me who will be feeling pain.

But if there will be no “me”, there will be no “angry”, “sad” and “pain”.

So, it was “me” who created “angry” and “sad”, not “you”.

So, I control myself before I want to control others.

And controlling myself will surely easier in controlling others.

Now, how do I solve problems that is causing me sufferings?

I really see how much problems I have solve without going through them by just acknowledging them and letting them go.

It wasn’t easy… there are still some negative afflictions in me such as unhappy with this and that.

However, the same thing just applies, acknowledge them and letting them go.

I realise how easy I am distracted away from truth, when I just hold on to problems.

However, every time I am struck with such weaknesses, I just thought it was a great blessing.

To be able to practice the teachings and seeing how it works in my mind and my body.

Now, this is what I see…

I see construction in having power, I see destruction in power abuse.

I see life in faith, I see death in betrayal act.

I see respect in humbleness, I see rebel in arrogance.

I see sweetness in effort, I see bitterness in ignorance.

I see bridge within friendship, I see a river between enemies.

I see mankind in love, I see emptiness in hatred.

May all be well and happy!

11/03/2011

2011-03-15T10:29:00.001+08:00

I am wondering and reflect on this since the past few days.

Wondering…

What if the next morning when I wake up, I was all alone and all my beloved ones are not with me anymore?

What if in just a matter of minutes, nothing is owned by me, except the dirt and debris left by the footsteps of gigantic quakes and wrathful waves?

What if when I open my eyes, the beautiful sky and the shiny sun is no longer greeting me but instead unmercifully glaring at me?

What if all these WHAT IF happen to me in reality?

What if all these are taking on me at this present moment?

I don’t know when. I don’t know how. But I know it’s possible.

When another side of the world is suffering, I see no reason how can I escape from such sudden unexpected event of life.

But,

Life can be so brittle that it is so easily shattered into pieces but isn’t this that makes it precious and should we appreciate it more?

Life can be so fragile but isn’t this that gave us the purpose of living, to fight and never gave up to this very single chance real-life game.?

Oh my dear brothers and sisters,

I see no words to bear your pain. I see no better prayers to ease your misery.

When I see into you, I see myself. Seeing how much I am always expose to danger and catastrophe in life.

And when I see how strong you are, it reminds me that we, humans can only face life and accept it at whatever circumstances we can ever imagined of.

Brothers and sisters,

Carry on life, as good as we will.

Brothers and sisters,

Appreciate our life, as good as they do.

Let this suffering a time for us to reflect the meaning of mankind once again that is to keep our self and others alive.

May all beings be safe from harm and danger.

Gong Xi Fa Cai

2011-01-31T11:25:00.001+08:00

The intense heat of the coming CNY has been felt a lot even before I came back to Penang.

The decorations and music running everywhere in shopping complexes in KL at least heal some sore and pain for not able to immediately be back home for Chinese New Year.

Whatever it is, this year is slightly different for me. As compared to last year, we have the reunion dinner in the hostel while this year I couldn’t join the fun as I return earlier than the rest.

Memories of the Reunion Dinner last year

How time flies! When we just met in June 2009, now it’s Jan 2011.

Time is something not for anyone of us to stop, definitely.

But time is definitely something we can cherish and make it as much as possible.

This reminds me of the Great Day CNY movie when it shows 10 + 1 (you will know what I mean if you had watch them).

It is true. Human have limited time on this world. But, it is how much it has been used so that at the end of the day, we do not feel regrets and not satisfied with life.

My best time in life since I was in INTEC will be to be blessed with friends… ups and downs, yeah! But at least it wasn’t dull and stays the same every moment.

Friends are such as family when we are far away from home. Quarrels and misunderstanding is common, because that is what putting us together again. It can be long so long each of everyone in us still treasure this friendship.

Every time when I came back to Penang, I will always feel like not going out or meet my old friends (simply lazy and felt so good at home).

However, as soon as I return to Shah Alam, there are times when this people will cross over my mind and let me ponder upon some good times once together.

Life is just like this.. never being aware of the present.

As the saying goes again, “Do not be dwelling on the past, do not dream on the future”. It is true.

From the very old collection: A group photo with the National FAIC friends. That was my first time I learn more about Chinese School style of friendship. hahaha

Saying on that, for this Chinese New Year (last in Malaysia until many more years to come), I just hope I can felt the warmth and reunion atmosphere once more.

I asked my roommate to write the word “yuan”圆 (reunion) for me and I pasted them beside my study desk.

This will be the word for Chinese New Year, hoping that

The old generation will be in reunion with the younger generation,

Those far away will be in reunion with closed friends and family.

The poor and the rich can be in reunion and see no difference among each other.

The living ones will remember (it will not be a ‘reunion’ for this case) of the departed ones.

In short, let us put this auspicious celebration as a celebration of ONE, celebration of all.. to put the far to be closer together and may all rejoice in this one-ness.

Source: http://www.zestpj.com/general/gong-xi-fa-cai/

With this, Happy Chinese New Year and let this be a year of wisdom, compassion and happiness!

May all be well and happy.

Friendship

2011-01-24T13:55:00.001+08:00

Upaddha Sutta SN 45.2:

One day, Ananda (Buddha’s cousin) was meditating. When he was awake from his meditation, he suddenly felt an intense happiness and joy overwhelming in him.

With a spark of understanding, he realised the importance and joy in a friendship.

Without delay, he went to the Buddha, the Enlightened Ones to share his realisation.

He implied to the Buddha, the Enlightened One that friendship constitute almost half of a holy life.

However, Buddha replied him, “Don't say that, Ananda. Don't say that. Admirable friendship, admirable companionship, admirable camaraderie is actually the whole of the holy life.

Laypeople and even monks, are all evolving around the circle of people. Good association between human beings are the key of peace

This has been a meaningful sharing I got from Brother Benny during a Dharma Talk today.

This reminds me of a bookmark that I got from the Buddhist Committee Member during the Dharma on Campus Camp.

In the bookmark, it is written there:

“Friendship is the only cure for hatred, the only guarantee of peace”.

-Buddha-

Perhaps, we have almost thought that Buddhism might be mostly all about mindfulness, renunciation, karma and any words Buddhism can be related with.

However, maybe we might have overlooked this simple yet important element in life which is friendship or in a more general meaning called human relationship.

Even when we observe the 5 precepts, we will know Buddha has emphasized a lot on human relationship.

For instance, how would we have observe the 5 Precepts of not killing, not telling lies, no sexual misconduct, and no stealing if there would be no other people or subject for us to act upon?

Therefore, Buddha has stated clearly to us that the very important purpose to observe the Precepts is in order to maintain a good relationship among people in the society. Only with that, we will find inner peace within oneself.

Again, this would certainly shows Buddhism has not rejected people relationship as most of us thought, when we always hear people saying Buddhism is usually about detachment.

Therefore, a good Buddhist will be not be getting rid of his friends, family and people around him but instead radiating the energy of compassion, love and well-being on them.

However, when we mean do not reject human relationship, we do not mean attaching to them as well.

I remember the book written by Ajahn Sumedho who said keeping a relationship attached and peaceful is by detachment.

This sounded confusing, as it will be hard to believe that we can practice detachment and attachment at the same time.

But after deep reflection, this is what I understand.

When we are attached to a friendship, for instance, when we found a friend which we really admire and love being with, we would always want to be with him, and expect him to do the same. This is desire. Therefore, as all beings subject to rise and ceasing, when we got to depart or perhaps, the other friend is not interested to be with us, we get disappointed. This is suffering. We got upset and hurt and we start to hate that friend thus creating a negative energy within us. This is the effect of attachment, and the cause is desire.

Therefore, attachment will only cause anger, frustration, jealousy, sadness and disappointment. We need to identify this cause to overcome sufferings.

On the other hand, it will be useless if we then prefer to just isolate ourselves in the cave or in a dark room and not communicating with others. This will certainly also lead us to loneliness and we might be also be blaming ourselves.

Therefore, attach to detach simply just state that by all means we can make friends and know whoever we want, we love them, we care about them and we concern about them. However, let us remember that there is nothing permanent including relationship. Hence, we will not have desire and we shall just let go of this relationship as the time comes. With this mindfulness, we have kept a harmonious mind and no negative afflictions will ever be created.

Friendship

Therefore, it is very important to be mindful and never be shaded by the shadow of temporary delusions. Holding on a subject too much without realising that it is subject to ceasing will just lead to personal sufferings.

Beauty is an illusion and is subject to decay and impermanence

This is the same in a family too. Parents nowadays have always love their children so much. This is not a bad thing, provided parents have the right understanding and being mindful. However, when they are not, their attachment of love has cause them to have the desire to expect their children to listen to them as well as to get a good score for examination. Therefore, the cause of loving is a desire and desire will only leads to suffering.

Therefore, Buddha’s teaching is universal and to the smallest matters we can always expect. Mindfulness is the only key and ultimate way to peace and happiness.

By putting all together, I have realised that I should not be afraid to be attached with friends, but I must remember that everything is subject to impermanence. If you would ask me what is the way of keeping a successful friendship or relationship according to Buddhism, this will be how I would say it.

As I am ending this, I felt I owe a lot to many Dharma teachers and Sangha for that teaching, directly and indirectly.

Many people have ask me, “What have I learn about Buddhism?”

I think my answer is, “I just learn about one thing- there is still many things I do not know and I need to learn them as much as I can in my this present life”.

May all be well and happy!

Time Flies

2010-12-27T23:35:00.001+08:00

“What is my problem with time huh? If you see properly, most of my blog posts are about time”

It is just like a few days back to Penang, though the truth I have been back for almost 1 month.

Good time flies, it is really true.

My holidays in Penang started with a lecture delivered to the Unit 25 members. Personally, it is more as a catch up moment for me to be updated with the current news of the society I am be with since the past 5 years.

However, a few great time before this that happened before I came back.

As soon as I finished the Chemistry exam, me and many friends went for steamboat in Yuan.

Besides that, went to Mid Valley after a long time didn’t been there, with Ming Khai to buy presents, besides meeting Tiong and Poh Chai as soon as before we are going back.

Taken before going back in KTM. Can you see anything abnormal?

Before sending Ming Khai back, I remembered Zi Hong, Chang Hwa and me went for Bah Kut Teh and also to Jusco for a movie. Pretty much a simple outing, with Chang Hwa you just don’t expect extraordinary..as in that few lines just being repeated for many times without saturation, only exaggeration =P

Wee was staying with me for the past few days in my room, got to see his “marketing life” more and I enjoy reading a few books of his besides listening to his view points and ideas.

Thanking him for the Think Big Act Small book, I managed to add in as a co-idea during the lecture with members despite I just manage to cover 3 chapters of it only.

After the lecture, I attended the Leadership Training Camp and Inter Unit Competition trainings.

A strong feeling tell me to STOP and let the younger leaders to lead but just can’t resist from returning as a dumped retired old man.

STOP SIN HUI… STOOOOOOP

I am clueless whether I am so passionate (which I will not personally say so) or because rather just want to meet members which I really love seeing their adventure in this society.

In short, Kepoh (busybody), just let it be that simple la.

Help out in the VAD Youth Interaction.

Undeniably, it can be one of the most successful events HQ had ever held ever since I join RC.

They succeeded in terms of attendance, participation, preparation as well as activities we have together.

Can you see the SMILES =) despite them being under the rain and going through all this?

Despite of the heavy rain, when I asked whether we should continue, strong voices of YES can be heard from all members.

After that event, VAD 21 (a voluntary group of RC adult members) turns into a feast-colic.

Barbeque in Renee’s house, dinner at Pauline’s house and Christmas party at John Toh’s house.

Indeed it is an exciting experience, although it can be awkward to sit together with so many adults ( I am still a young man, if you had wonder).

Luckily, Win Sern, Jennifer, Eric, and Fong Xiang who always make my day by being part of the younger community, as they sometimes can turn the conversation into a big laughter.

Besides RC, it is nice to find old-kaki of the SPM and STPM fellows too.

haha for SPM macam 1 only, Esmond! Despite of his
busy schedule for adult development, he spend his time for IUC too.

Besides, got to meet Kenneth who also join me in VYI and Radin who plan to meet in IUC training too.

Zhen Fei went with me for the Chingay Parade, besides many joining the Seoul Garden barbeque to celebrate Eu Tiong’s birthday.

Sau Fei: Everytime when Sin Hui is back sure steamboat one =)

Having fun bringing Eu Tiong on my bike to Zhen Fei house and spent few more hours seeing them playing PS II.

Clueless and helpless to find a way to join in, because I thought it just take extra-ordinary mind to comprehend that complicated process to play the game.

I am so lazy to think anymore, perhaps no more.

All in all, holidays can be fun but can be harmful too if spent too much on “decomposition and decaying activities”.

For me, so far so good!

Time

2010-10-13T16:43:00.001+08:00

Ding dong ding dong…there goes another month..

Btw, I am having my Chemistry Test tomorrow, am I not? So, what on Earth am I doing here?

Well, this is definitely not procrastination. I have stared at that Chemistry book for nearly an hour and now it’s just a resting of eyes, literally =).

Haih…time flies..whether it will be a good thing to happen or not.

My sister and Juniors finish her PMR…freedom is really all there for them now!

SPM is coming so soon..as well as STPM..All the best to those going through it..Hope you people are still standing and breathing right there..haha hopefully this heal you a bit.

The Juniors in INTEC will almost complete their 1 semester in INTEC. Don’t say if they felt it short, me too! I still can capture every single thing in my MMS and now, I can even start preparing my luggage to fly anytime next year after June. Hooray!!!

Oo…Dharma Talk has come to its end for this year. I will never forget the first time I encounter the Shah Alam Buddhist Temple from the intention to conserve electricity by using stairs all the way to the hospitality shown by the helpers in the café, administrators, and definitely the Sunday school teachers.

I really miss those time helping out in Sunday school. At first, I felt so small and terrified as I am so new to Buddhism, what some more to teach the children which are even better than me. However, I just totally forgotten before remembered again that Buddhism is alive in every man’s soul as how we breathe in and out without realising. That gave me some courage to go. Indeed, diminishing the worries actually let me enjoy and experience more.

This reminded me a storyoften retold in Buddhism.

At one moment when Buddha was meeting his disciples, he lifted a flower above his head and showed it to his students. At that moment, all his disciples felt so tense amusing why Buddha did that. However, out of all, a disciple of Buddha just smiled so sincerely to Buddha. Buddha replied his smile. And Buddha said, “The benefit of this flower has been transmitted to this student of mine”. Many Buddhist followers were still wondering what the metaphor was laid behind this story.

Thinking excessively will put our mind thinking more about the intention more than to enjoy the flower

In fact, the message said was that usually human minds often think too much thus missing many joy and bliss just right in front of him. The lacking in mindfulness has put them into their self-delusion that leads to suffering and disasters. Not thinking too much and just focus at the subject will keep us learn and discover more.

Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu!!

What is meant by searching for happiness when happiness is just right there in front of our eyes? Its the matter of appreciation to what is already there for us

What a nice feeling after get to write here since my last writing for my IELTS.

Cheers people out there and always have fun in life.

New ~~room~~ home make my journey in INTEC more conducive =)

(The photos used are taken during Bobby’s birthday. If you (the Birthday Boy) ever come across this, thank you for showing us a little part of meaning about life, I would say. Sincerely hope you and all my friends will soon discover what is already there waiting for them.)

I have a Dream

2010-09-21T07:52:00.001+08:00

In my recent usual days, I will try to rise early without whirling around my mind dreaming and staring blankly on the ceiling.

But, I wasn’t today.

Don’t know because I was too tired after the whole day in INTEC, but I got a weird dream that prolong my sleep.

It was the dream going back to the time when I have conflicts with a bunch of Seniors those days in Unit 25.

OMG! Why should I suddenly dreamt of all that?

Urrgh..just as soon as I got awake, my head was so pain and my whole body was shaking shivering cold, to be signs of fever.

Then, I just feel so fatigue and reckless, not knowing what to do and feel like not waking up yet.

Getting back to that past moments was indeed a bitter one.

Everything was so fine even after the taking over of our new positions in AGM, but I know it was fine because I was just impersonating a role of ‘yes-man ‘leader that permit them to do anything that they want

After realising, many members and Juniors were harmed, by being humiliated with unnecessary work and burden, that wasn’t belong to them, I started to stood by the Juniors and members side.

Things start to get rotten.

I was boycott. I was given a hard time to reach agreement with them in selecting leaders, AP commander, INTRA Chairman as well not having co-operation in Unit’s events, camps and activities.

Life was more peaceful and together in Junior-ship

Quarrels, arguments, gossiping were running furiously between both parties and 2 camps were set up- the Senior and Junior.

It’s really hard to be a leader-for-all, especially when you face people that are clueless about their responsibilities and pledge to their service.

This is because when you correct them, you ended up causing them to rebel on you.

Even until today, nearly almost after 2 years, we lose contact and not knowing each other progress.

It’s very sad, every time when I met them. Knowing the fact we have known each other since Form 1 but yet, we act as strangers among us. Isn’t Unit the place to keep everyone together?

Yes, I admit I had lost friends! But those days when I am obliged to choose friends and members, I have chosen the latter.

This is what and why I am selected for, not for my personal interest.

No regrets..no looking back..no sighs..as I have did it my way!!

So, if today if there is anyone who will ask me, “Then, comment on your success and failure that you have brought throughout a term of leadership”.

The reply will be let the history to judge me, let the 284 members of the year to evaluate, as I have did what I supposed to do.

I was said to be the softest leader members have ever encounter, am I not? Yet, many things behind that have seen more of my conviction to decision no matter what

But for my future days, I hope to join back this string together, when both sides are ready, as I always treasure this friendship as strong as before.

The challenge is just- where to start with.

Don't let the good times in Unit be harm and polluted by POWER

This reminded me of the disputes in the recent grassroots.

But, just felt it will be beyond of my purpose if I would comment on it. I hope they will be wise enough and think for the Unit interest- and not otherwise.

Alright, back to my normal mode. Brush teeth and get ready for school tomorrow.

It’s just nice catching back memorable times- either it is bitter or sweet

Lifely Life

2010-09-10T22:08:00.001+08:00

Let me make a very typical start by for writers who don’t blog after some time…

Owhh..it has been some time I have not blogged. Well, things just keep popping up making life so hectic and busy, that I can’t find any more time to write. Anyway, a good return and it’s so glad that I am back here.

Since the last post, life has been so different. To be exact, semester 3 in INTEC was really not a laughing matter, as more datelines of assignments, quizzes, test etc stacking abundantly on my working desk while outing and lepak-ing are facing a very serious extinction.

However, I am glad because going through this under compression life reminds me to be ever-conscious and ready for whatever challenges..and I know it wasn’t a cliché, as I realise the difference in me as compared to before.

Let me sketch some sharing on moments on Dharma Talk. Despite after a month since DOC, the momentum in me is still going strong..or even stronger! I don’t know what urging me to pursue more, but I felt I have found something every time I attended a Dharma Talk.

Not forgetting, that will be the time getting along with Juniors. Kind of disappointed, most of my AML10 friends don’t really join me for Dharma Talk, to sleep more, and not interested are some popular reasons given.

However, it is enlightening to mingle around Juniors. Firstly, felt younger, all are still very youthful and energetic. Haha, it sounded as if I am old, soft and weak. Just felt disturbed when some tends to be so serious (maybe because talking with a senior wor)..konon yea! All are really matured, not little that gain my respect for who they are.

Besides, after shifting to Cemara, time with friends are also lesser. What to do?? All are so far away. However, I can see our bonding and ties still remain as before, since we still meet in college and hang out whenever possible.

It really makes me appreciate the moments we have, when realised that many great buddies not going to fly together after our term ended in INTEC.

This mid-sem break I expect it to be the week I will have ample of rest besides getting ready for the new coming academic session. However, due to unforeseen circumstances undergo by Tiong (though, I doubt that), I ended up bringing Tiong, a roommate, around Penang and Kedah.

Despite of all the condemns and insult given by him on every place and food he tried, I take that as a room of…..revenge when I visit Sibu again. Anyway, hopefully he had have enough fun..to an extend that is just enough that will make him not coming again =P

Thanks to Ming Khai for sharing my burden, by allowing us to spend a few days in Kedah. You might think I am joking, but getting to visit Tun Mahathir’s house, Tunku memorial, and the Muzium Padi, are some wishes that has been just gracefully fulfilled in the trip, thanks again.

Too bad, no chance to hike the Gunung Jerai for a breathtaking scenery and Sungai Petani ice-blended dessert which I promised and will definitely keep a fonder memory about Kedah.

Woww..this is the most random post I have written with no organisation and proper subject. Let it be..let it be..Life is just so unexpected… Awaiting for tomorrow and make it better than today!!

Life

2010-08-07T10:16:00.001+08:00

The ups and downs of life: instead of being happy …, we live a life in which we let our well-being be determined by too many external factors”

Going through my past 2 weeks was indeed an exhausted and unforgettable one.

Firstly, a few friends and roommates actually tried to make a birthday surprise for my super-belated birthday.

Their plan was rather predictable and super-tiring but I seriously understand that they must have taken a lot of troubles to make this plan work. Thanks Ming Khai and friends.

Seriously, by doing to others and know how difficult it is, will make you appreciate more when others do the same for you.

However, perhaps, the bonding and ties sometimes just push us to forget about the complications, but rather we find ways to simplify them.

Writing about this, seriously throw out my sad feelings more, as this remind me a lot of self-centred and ungrateful people around me. (Sorry for that, but that will be the best word).

Besides that, a turning point in life, or I will call it an era of enlightenment in life, will be to know about Buddhism more.

Went to the Dharma on Campus, enable me to solidify my understanding more about the way of life.

I had never know Buddhism was such beautiful and universal.

-Brothers and sisters in the camp-

-Dharma Talk-

Not to be exaggerating, but thought of me having such character, Taoism and Buddhism will fit me the best till the end of my life.

Life is going for a change, and this change is not for the sake of changing, but the time has come.

Bon Odori

2010-07-23T16:29:00.001+08:00

Yay! I was in Bon Odori..

But, this time it is not in Penang, but in Shah Alam, Kompleks Sukan Negara.

It was on the same date with the one in Penang. Supposedly, I plan not to go, konon want to study.

After realising half a day is spent on nothing, might as well just have a look at the Bon Odori in Shah Alam.

p.s: if you don’t know, only Penang and Shah Alam has Bon Odori celebrarion in Malaysia

As soon as I step into the stadium, an imaginary table directing me to list the difference of Bon Odori celebration in Penang and in Shah Alam.

First of all, the people. Gosh! Penang have to really admit defeat. The people here I will say is 3 times more than what we have. I cant imagine if I am in a duty with so many people.

1% of the total people, unbelievable? Believe it =)

-Kind of picnic while watching the performance-

Followed by, there have more appealing Japanese food, and I mean really Japanese food. You don’t see people selling apom malik or jagung rebus nearby. It was so much tasty and worth lining up to buy them. But, the price will perhaps burn a hole in your wallet.

Japanese Ice Kacang (RM6)- Look nice but the taste was otherwise, maybe not suitable for me

Japanese food- cuttle fish, eel, sushi. This was all nice (Don’t ask me their name in Japanese)

Then, seems like people in Penang very paiseh. I don’t see that many people dancing around the stage, pity those fellow dancers dancing alone up there! In Shah Alam, you see them hih-hah here and there and waving the fan high and low. I was part of them and the feeling was like reaching Japan already.

-Everyone was really high that night-

There is many more, like larger space to move around, they got other cultural dance, and super a lot Japanese people around etc.

-Posing with the cultural performers-

Other than that, it’s the St. John being the crowd control. Seems like Red Crescent is discriminated anywhere so long got St John beside us –sigh-

I feel those who is a Bon Odori fan should see yourself the celebration in Shah Alam and do your evaluation.

Group photo with a few ~~sexy~~ pretty Japanese girls there

From left: Japan Ambassador, Japanese Top model, Japanese, Japanese Most Wanted , and Japanese Prisoner of War

Bravo Bon Odori!!

Unit 25 (2)

2010-07-20T13:11:00.001+08:00

The worst thing to do is to do nothing.

Recently, I was notified that our Unit has emerged the 1^st Runner up for the District Parade. Congratulation, Unit!

They have started their trainings back few months, sacrificing their academic time, classes, tuitions, personal time, families etc etc just for this recognition.

After a long period of training, they reach their destination, but their journey for the next shall continues

Yet, I realise behind that success there are also many who are devastated with disappointment and unhappiness overwhelming them.

I only have 3 thoughts to explain why they feel the losing (to get 1^st place) that way:

Firstly, they actually didn’t put their best in trainings and competitions (sometimes, unforeseen circumstances is a reason too) and think they can do better if given the chance again.

Secondly, because of a few people who have not committed and that little few rotten members had actually ruined the day, so they ‘beh syok’him.

Thirdly, due to unjust and illogical judgement. They felt that they deserved to achieve more but just being discriminated (again).

If it’s the first reason, what else can be said? Unless, there is one leader willing to step forward and rectify this mistake. If leaders are still lying behind the old laurels and neglecting their duties, we will just remain blaming ourselves after competitions.

A boss tell us what to do, a leader shows that it can be done

For the second reason, why should this kind of members are in at the first place? Because of insufficient well-trained members? Then we know who should be held responsible.

How we expect to make our members committed, when the leaders are not committed in their commitment to make them one.

For the 3^rd reason, I remember how I have expressed our emotions during my time. We actually punished ourselves for not championing the day by running around the competition base. This is to show we are gentlemen and brave enough to admit our defeat BUT our defeat lies right there because we are not bringing IT back with us. At last, proven! Our troop that had lost to X school proclaim our fame and honour while X school was no where near (or perhaps, didn’t even show up

Let others judge as a loser. Since what matters most is how we perceive our own.

However, it is a fact that when Unit don’t achieve well, it is committees that are accountable and answerable to this. This is because they are those with proper control and authority, while members are just under their directive.

I always sound provocative to committees and sided towards members (that usually appreciate that).

But, I realise mostly (my members) today are now committees. I wonder you all still appreciate it or acting like your past committees who thinks that once committee, lupakan member.

I don’t mind being hated, but so long my principle stand, Unit will never rule or succeed with the members as the back spine and they are always everything to Unit.

Hopefully, we shall rise again and excel in marching though its role and objective in Red Crescent is still questionable.

It will be within your prerogative to order them, mould them, and prepare them for the next battle. Their failure is not anything that will mean your success, but you share the disgrace too.

All in all, what I am saying here is just for those who did their best, be proud and lift your head up high.

You have not turn down anyone of us, as we are very proud with anything you have been doing to make Unit a better place.

Admitting mistake is just adding problem, correcting mistake is the solution to the problem.

Be proud, no regrets, and courage enough to change.

Unit, Strong and Faithful

Another illegal piece depicting about my old history called Unit. Perhaps, saying things from far is the only way I express my unconditional affection to Unit.

Usaha Takwa Mulia

2010-07-09T12:42:00.001+08:00

Wahai universiti-ku,

Sesungguhnya masa berjalan pantas,

Kerana mu bergerak bersama nadian anak-anakmu.

Wahai universiti ku,

Ketiku ku baru mengenali mu,

Diri ku terasa kecil di sisi mu.

Kini,

Seiring dengan masa,

mu semakin dekat dengan sanubari ku.

Wahai universiti-ku,

mu sudah menjadi sebahagian ku

kerana keikhlasan ku hanya ku yang memahaminya

Walaupun ketika mu melaungkan

‘Destinasi cita-cita negara dan bangsaku’

Tidak diertikan destinasi bangsa ku.

Namun, ketika ku melaungkan

‘Janji ku pada pertiwi untuk menabur bakti’

ku tahu itulah janji ku pada mu di suatu masa ku berjaya

Kerana budi dan kasih mu berikan

ku tidak akan lupa daratan

ku doakan anak-anak mu

yang datang dengan harapan

sudahpun pulang dengan kejayaan

kami yang baru datang dengan keazaman

diberi dengan keyakinan dan tidak lupa akan

Usaha Taqwa Mulia.

Reaching an End for a new Beginning

2010-07-08T15:50:00.001+08:00

Now, when I am counting my days, I realise all my remaining days count…

2 more days to go..Ooo dear!

I cannot believe that the so called longest holiday is going to end soon.

No regrets neither looking back, as I have done what I am supposed to do.

Friends and family, Issue Report, RC and music are all what I catch up for the past 1 month.

I did it.

I will miss the time again meeting friends, though I am tired answering the question “What are you doing now”, or “When you are flying” .

I will miss RC members, though realising more ‘X’ behind me.

I will miss celebrating my birthday together with family, maybe I won’t have that anymore for the next 5 years.. or even more than that.. I have felt that last year. Sorrow but learn to be stronger.

Behind all this, I find myself again, reflecting the past to see if I had deviated elsewhere and getting back to the right path.

Perhaps, creating Facebook at the last minute is also a strategic move, not to waste my time from the very beginning itself.

Now, what will be my goals for the next semester?

Leave it to me, it’s meant to be done more than to be said.

Celebration of Tao

2010-07-03T14:16:00.001+08:00

Now, it’s the time to gather again!

People used to think Taoism is a religion (or actually a belief) that is filled mostly with magic, where you can see people flying, jumping, and hitting themselves with swords or needles.

For those who belief it, called that medium or ‘tang ki’ when God transcend into human form. For those not, maybe they assume it’s a kind of devil possession.

Anything you would like to perceive doesn’t matter.

However, what is interesting, Taoism has always been the instrument to hold my family together or even until to my extended family members.

Saying upon that, I am thankful to my grandfather as he is not only passing down a belief to his generation, but even setting a rice bowl for most of his generation today.

His setting up of a Taoim Centre, called 金真坛 has assured us a place to reflect upon his legacy, history, and his own story of Tao.

Last Sunday at 26^th June, the Centre celebrated the Heavenly Deity Zhang Tian Shi.

However, what that make the celebration significant was mostly all my relatives came together and meet up.

You can hear laughter and noises people catching up since we had a mass meeting since the last Chinese New Year.

But, it’s also sad and sorrow in me to realise there are some who had departed and leave forever, to not join us as years before.

However, this is the cycle of life. The newer and younger generations coming up and the current generation will be moving on.

I don’t know how long more I got this chance to celebrate this event again, as I am going to study further sooner.

However, let this continue to be a tradition and may the Tao remain eternal.

T.E.A.C.H.E.R.S.

2010-07-01T21:12:00.002+08:00

After finished duty in St. Xavier’s Institution, I drop by Popular near KOMTAR, to get a new stamp album.

The duty was so boring. Luckily got some other VAD members there, so we chatted from 8.30am until 4.30pm =.=”.

While paying for the stamp album, my eyes were caught by a particular greyish-white hair gentleman hanging on his usual shoulder-sling bag.

He caught my attention as he seems to be familiar, somewhere seen him before.

I remembered.

He is Mr Cheng Hin, a very dedicated ex-teacher.

I wanted to greet him, but that ‘effective’ cashier just take so long to take my money.

When I went back, he disappeared already. So, I walked around to see if he is still somewhere around but he wasn’t, so I leave.

He was a teacher in Sungai Petani, Kedah last time teaching students English in the ‘pondok’ (means an isolated Malay school in the village) and he is once a Frees too.

So, after his retirement, nearly 50 years after he had leave school, he actually didn’t forget to return his part to the school.

Mr Ghafoor and wife, Madam Vivian, Mr Phang and Mr Cheng Hin (all Old Frees) organised a workshop on techniques to improve interview skills.

Most of us thought we are going to learn anything like body language, attire to wear, documenting and whatsoever related to interviews like other typical interviews workshop.

Mr Ghafoor, the man, is delivering his lecture while Mr Cheng Hin looking at.

However, what we expected and what was given are totally different.

Mr Ghafoor, a Human Resource and experienced interviewer to many organisations taught us on the right values and right mindset in preparing for any kinds of interview rather than solely scholarship interviews.

I still remembered his few lessons regarding to organisational development, job description, know-hows, preparing resume and do’s and don’ts in interviews.

Honestly, the 5 days course turns my life to see things in different perspective, exampling the outspoken Mr Ghafoor with his inspiring and motivating speeches.

There are lots to say about the course, but I shall remember mostly about what Mr Cheng Hin and Mr Phang had done.

Imagine, Mr Cheng Hin and Mr Phang are both in their 70s and 60s respectively, why are they bothered to held this course burdening themselves carrying the food, preparing the breakfast, lunch and tea throughout the course (if I had forgotten to say that it’s free also).

However, let’s put aside about the $$$, they don’t care it anyway.

They dress very simply and neatly, they spoke humbly treating us as their children and they seem to be working very happily.

On the last day, they thank us for attending and making their days meaningful for the last 5 days.

The right most in white t-shirt is Mr Cheng Hin while the left most in blue is Mr Phang with Mdm. Vivian (in pink tudung) and Mr Ghafoor (in yellow) beside

Mr Phang is the toughest man among them, but he dropped tears when he was giving his last words before the course reached its end.

I can’t control myself too, as I really felt how much their love and sacrifices they make for us.

They are just not teachers, but a loving and compassionate knowledge giver.

I know the knowledge we gain that day was not only on interview skills, but sharing and caring each other.

Some of the new great friends I know from the course

They have influenced my mind to pledge to be a better doctor and remember doctors are just not about curing, healing and treating patients physically but surely mean more than that.

I remembered a very motivating friend from INTEC, Xavier once said:

“Teaching is not a career, it’s a calling”.

He is inspired to teach Chemistry subject in future and surely a respectable Dr in Chemistry one day too.

Yes, I think that is true as how Mr Cheng Hin and Mr Phang had put the real definition of teaching profession into action.

This meeting with Mr Cheng Hin actually remind and retell me the story of these dedicated and loving teachers that will forever be devoted in shaping better students for better tomorrow.

I will always remember you all, teachers.

Annual T******** Camp 2010

2010-06-21T02:48:00.001+08:00

~~Back few weeks ago, I drop by~~

After correction…

Back few weeks ago, I was like a participant in ATC, staying overnight in school and see how ATC this year was.

As usual, making that sudden visit which I hope didn’t cause much unhappiness to the seniors, we apologised.

Welcoming indirectly by the people running here and there, whistling blowing twice (symbolically meaning ‘switch station’ if it still hasn’t change), Treasure Hunt is going on.

I started to know names of new members, and forgetting them at the same time as all names sounded the same!!

The Head Section Leader, Jonathan (I am sure I spelled correctly after spelled wrongly so many times =P), followed me (or I followed him, FINE!) walking here and there.

I started to be talking…oo NO its blabbering..bla bla..10 years ago, 5 years ago, 3 years ago, 1 year ago, a few days ago…..and then I ask ‘Where you want to go now? ‘after realising I have been sitting down speaking for a couple of hours.

Truthfully, I don’t talk that much with Kenneth (the HSL before Jonathan), perhaps he knows almost all what I am going to say.

-That’s the Secretary (a member back then) sleeping in ATC 2006..

What is the black figure doing under his leg, I don’t know)-

So, I started annoyed some of them, Esmond (the Secretary particularly).

Inside my heart, I was thinking, perhaps it’s time me treating them as my friends. Many people in Unit 25 have not many friends, either because of politic backstabbing, showing off power, or so called tradition.

I have not many friends in Unit 25 too, and I really mean friends. For not many reasons, for duty sake, to be fair lorh… if not people tends to called you favourism la, nepotism la…and I just hate people zmming me…so I acting not like friends..konon..still kena ‘isssmmm’ by people…haha and for that I lose many friends in Unit 25, merely still my members…

The best thing I had was knowing the new members. And again I see light through the dark tunnel. Many are potential, in front of me(behind, I don’t know!) I pray for the best for them and succeed so Unit 25 will shine again..Hoorayy!!! but wait. What AGAIN??..what you mean? So now not shine?...I don’t know, you decide.

-My Group in ATC 2006, from memories to history-

Well, my time is over. So, I tried to write as casual as possible. If too serious, kena banned later. Or what I said ended up in the committee meeting agenda to stop me coming and then bising bising in the cyber world. In fact, I only wrote 2 post about Unit 25 in my blog. In real, I can write a script longer than Sejarah Melayu and surely more interesting I will potray it than Tun Sri Lanang..ops Sejarah! But but, what for??? Let them rule, we see.. ~~Let them fall, we flee~~

The current HSL 09-10 with the then DHSL and Treasurer year 07-08 with the then Treasurer and Section Leader 08-09..

Who ever know its them to lead when they are just member back then?

Same goes to this picture… There are Great Leaders waiting to be nurtured and lead Unit 25 to success…

Strong and Faithful.

(It was not written for evaluation or any way of indication, but due to author’s senility and boredom, it is all for personal pleasure and future reference when he is older)

Sibu, land of Hornbill

2010-06-10T14:30:00.001+08:00

At last, I manage to make that little time to recap the good times in Sibu, the land off 1Malaysia, for the peace and varied ethnic group living with peace and understanding.

4 days 3 nights trip, participated by 3 friends from Peninsular, with another 1 originated from that blissful land, welcomed by the parents, relatives and all friends there, how thankful we are, that just can’t be said by putting them into words.

We had went to many places especially the astoundingly erected temples, busy “largest” pasar malam,and..and..and.. Central market la, Song market la and Kuching market la (many markets there).

The best spot you can find in the Pasar Malam

We have walked along that hills and lakes, setting our way through by walking under the killing unmerciful hot Sun, visiting museums, galleries and exhibition centre until I can speak Sibu history more than the Historian now.

Heritage walk + Sunburn

We have tried out all the great food that is endemic and only found in Sibu, causing us to totally forget the word hungry in our mind but just over-full.

The Kong Piah, one of the many many good food

We have the great time touring here and there, cheers, laughter, fun although some people was really annoyed by my sarcastic remark, no hard feelings, all was said to trigger for the activation hormone to bring us to more places.

Tiong ‘tried’ to smile despite he was tired guiding us througout the tour

Lastly, even the last person in the world still doesn’t believe me, yet I will still say it, I am seriously falling in love with the Sibu sky. My deep affection to its blue (that is so different in Peninsular) decorated by the white snowy clouds that deserve all eyes to just stop blinking and stare at them for a while.

I will not mention about Kuching, Sibu has make up an impressive view for the great Land of Hornbill…

Before this ended, I shall make this crystal clear, Tiong wanted so much to put either Sibu or Penang is better.

I just thought otherwise, these 2 places are just unique at their own way. How can I compare an apple with an orange?

If that comparison was ever make by me, with no intention, I just hope that Tiong will have that competition spirit to make Sibu a great time, as he had make it, or more than that.

No winners, but MEMORABLE TIME…

Bye Sibu…

Bye from a Cendana-ian

2010-05-31T16:53:00.001+08:00

(This post was written the night before completely shifted out from 2/210 Kolej Cendana at 1.15am with the unexplainable emotion running through the author)

The night is almost reaching the end.

Yet, I am still consciously staring on the computer after a hustle bustle day packing and sending my belongings to the new residence.

This new place that is going to be my next shelter looks like a colony of settlement during the pre-independence days with painting scraping off and also the traditionally used dumping garbage tunnel method, with building erecting one by one closely without any tress shading the place, and anything you can imagine during those era.

What for sure, I am going to miss the current place I am staying, nicely called the Kolej Cediaman Kolej Cendana.

Perhaps, I would have once thought Cendana as how I have described the future hostel, but the sentimental values embedded for the past two semesters, have absolutely make this a very missing and memorable stay.

Yes, maybe after minus that not functioning washing machine, the super hot life that can really squeeze out all your sweat, with those absurd ruling that demand us to wear longs or you will be given a ‘love letter’ by someone with the name of Pak Guard.

But…but I will never forget Cendana is the place that unites and meet us all together.

The place we share the laughter, letting the music playing in the air after having a barbeque (with a size of pit as big as just the 2 Pearson Biology textbook shared by almost 10 people.)

But, maybe you would say all this will still be the same in the future hostel.

I don’t think so.

Personally, I will remember the Mak Cik in Mesra Petronas, who have treated us so mesra and someone we would like to see after our dinner. ( I was searching for you for past 1 week to bade farewell but you were not there, maybe we will meet again in near future).

How about the Mak Cik Ayam Panas Panas (I don’t mean the Mak Endon), but the Mak Cik who sells the Nasi Lemak there…

Thanks for the dinner, maybe it’s dirty, but truthfully will other stalls like Dawood will be so much cleaner. Far away from truth, I have seen myself the Dawood kitchen. And remember the guy who makes the roti canai. Did he wash his hand every time he came out from the toilet?

So, tahan saja la!!!

The lady Pak Guard who wears like a policeman, you are just so ‘cute’ (maybe not an accurate word for a security guard), but I just think so.

The Chinese man who sells vegetable, the shorty guy who sells chicken, the Kanji Store owner, the mak cik in the dhobi, see all of you again and I would say that all of you have make my life in Cendana more worthy…

Tomorrow will be different from yesterday, but the good yesterday will make me make a better tomorrow today.

Segenap setahun masa berjalan,

Masa benarlah cepat bergerak.

Segalanya kini tinggal kenangan,

Jauh di mata di hati tidak.

Kerani dan pak guard,

Mesra dan Pasar Malam,

Walau kini tak dekat,

Tetap ingin berkirim salam.

Salam cendana.

22 May 2010.

Auld Lang Syne

2010-04-26T22:49:00.001+08:00

With his will and power, I was sick last week.

Thank God and all praises bestowed upon Him that I am recovered now and hopefully will not be traumatized by that again (it’s an infection of bacteria trying to mess with my blood).

But what is so coincident, it was bitterly added with so much of other unforeseen events.

My uncle (I called him ‘papa’) who taken care of me when I am small passed away due to cancer.

I remembered a lot about him during his living days.

He is really a fan of singing and from there I actually know earlier about the oldies he used to sing.

Sadly, I only compiled his favourite music after his departure as I believe maybe that will be one of the fondest memories I can remember about him.

Thanks to him, until today i have never (dare to) use any vulgar word or to even speak any of that type of language.

Thanks to him, I will always have a watch ‘crafted’ on my heart as he always bite our hand when I am small proclaiming that as a gift to us (a watch, said he). Perhaps, it symbolises the principle of punctuality as I had never see him late.

Thanks to him, I will love my religion more and keeping it stronger and faithfully flowing deep in me.

Thanks to him, for all the care and love, though he never obviously show that (he is a Chinese old-styled man) – boh kong cheng type (if you understand)

From the respect, the societies have given to you, I know you are a man with pride and have never turn our family down.

Unofficially, you are the head of us when you leaded grandfather’s business, and we shall endear you forever in this huge family.

I bade farewell with you forever, but the relationship that is built will remain bridging my soul and yours in the after world.

At the same time, it is reminding us a reminded reminder, to love people around us more when we and them still have the time and space.

-Om mani padme Om-

(A very traditional way of Chinese community in setting

up a funeral which I see it more as a tradition to preserve)

Unit 25,

2010-04-02T14:59:00.003+08:00

I still remember it was during my time when Unit 25 was under my leadership ( and it's history now), a group suggested for a blog (or website or whatsoever)

I disagreed.

Simply because I have much anticipated that it will be a place for people to attack each other, condemning each other and criticizing the society and members irresponsibly.

However, this people turn their back on me and the blog was created.

Perhaps, as it was not formed with the Unit's agreement, it wasn't popular as nobody publicize for them.

I am not sure if it still exist, but even if it is, it should be remaining as just an ordinary blog for those Unit-lovers to continue spending their old time together

But!!

What I have anticipated in this advanced technology gadget is true enough!!

It happens today.

The unity and cohesion of the society is challenged by certain group of people when we see mouth-of-war going on.

I am not sure why must this happen when we have realized there is already internal conflict within the society

But, what can be more important than being together and keeping the respect between the elders and young ones?

Neither anyone is at blame. We are not pointing fingers here.

But it's time for leaders to sit together and weigh the society's bonding and strength within committees and members again.

I hope the higher authorities will be solving this problem soon.

Hopefully, the next few weeks, we shall see all those Facebook and Blogs comments and post with bad reflection of the society will be cleared of.

But, even if it's not. It's OK.

It just reflects how severe the ties between members/committees and how 'truthful' those leaders are upon their struggle.

FORTIS ATQUE FIDELIS.
Strong and faithful.

(what a nice coffee-break by writing this post after a long period staring at the laptop finishing my issue report)

Nostalgia 2 Hari

2010-03-13T00:44:00.014+08:00

Sesungguhnya, anak-anak kampung senantiasa kita bayangkansebagai bercapal selipar Jepun di atas ladang dan sawah, bermandi lumpur bermandi sungai, tidak mengerti huruf, tidak pandai mengira. Namun, barang kali anak-anak kampong yang saya kenali ini pasti bukan begitu.

Mereka bercapal, benar! Tetapi ketika mereka ingin mengambil air wuduk menunaikan solat.

Mereka bermandi lumpur bermandi sungai, benar! Kerana itulah hidup mereka.

Tetapi yang pasti, mereka bukan golongan buta huruf yang tidak mengerti kata dan angka.

Mereka merupakan golongan anak bangsa yang begitu dahagakan ilmu pendidikan.
Mereka begitu ingin berjaya.

Sesungguhnya, mengenali mereka merupakan kebahagiaan yang begitu mengerti buat diriku.

Mereka tidak pandai berpura-pura,
Mereka nakal, tetapi mereka memaafi dan tidak tahu berdendam,
Mereka tidak menyaingi sesama lain.

Aku tidak bertopeng ketika bercakap dengan mereka,
Aku benar-benar menjadi diriku.
Mengapa lebih mudah aku bercakap dengan kanak-kanak?

Sesungguhnya, dari detik itu, aku benar-benar mendoakan kejayaan mereka.
Bukan sekadar UPSR!
Biarlah kejayaan dunia dan akhirat,
Biarlah kesusahan mereka dibalaskan dengan kemanisan kecemerlangan.

Selamat berjaya!!
Ketua Menteri, Raja A., Arthee, Yunus, Idaham, Firdaus, Syafiq, Hakim, Syamil, Zulhilmi, Natasya, Linda, dan banyak lagi kawan-kawan yang masih belum saya benar-benar kenali!!

Terima kasih Cikgu-cikgu,
Keikhlasan dan kasih sayang cikgu-cikgu,
Mngingatkan kita rumah yang jauh dari mata,
Cikgu mngingatkan kita akan cikgu kita di sekolah dahulu,
Rupanya cikgu dan mereka semua sama,
Hasrat yang sama, perjuangan yang sama.

Perjuangan anda belum selesai,
Tetapi, biarlah bertatih asalkan langkah itu cermat,
Aku doakan seikhlas-ikhlasnya.

They are my friends, Yes they are!!
They are my brothers, Yes they are!!
They are one of the best memories I have by all of them…
Only me and myself will understand…And shall carry with me whenever it will..

Good Luck, O People…

Post- Chinese New Year

2010-03-04T14:38:00.026+08:00

At last, Chinese New Year celebration come to an end. I guess we Chinese actually own the longest celebrated festival ( for almost 15 days) or even more than that.

I don't know what it mean to others.

Reunion?
Joy and fun?
Eat..eat..and eat?
Killing weather with furious Sun?
Ang Pau and fireworks?

Well, for me..Reunion suits the best for this auspicious day.

Maybe I do gain some (or perhaps, a lot!!) weight for the extra chips and snacks throughout the season...

Yet, I think being together and be one for the time of this celebration is much seen and felt.

Especially since I study in Shah Alam, the meaning of home no longer just mean to provide a physical shelter, but surely more than that.

Brothers and sisters coming back and seeing each other after a long time.

We see how each other busy preparing for the "Red Day" yet sharing the laughters and fun.

And that is all about Chinese New Year for the first few days.

But, WAIT!!

How about reunion and meeting with the 'late' or those who have leave us.

Yea, they are not forgotten too.

Every year, my family and I shall visit and clean my paternal grandparents' grave, a few days before CNY.

This year, my Dad forgotten. But we still make it. On the first day of CNY.

Yea, you can say its very PANTANG and I shall be bad luck for the whole year.

But, where will we be without them?

Not only the dead ones. It's a family tradition to go for a mass praying to show our gratitude to God for their blessing throughout the year.

So, as usual, as the leading role in the House, I went with my father after Reunion Dinner to exactly 7 temples and saying Hi to every type of God- from Heaven to Hell.

Visiting relatives...and many said I am getting fatter. Don't know it means GOOD or BAD?
GOOD- I am enjoying life in Cendana and the food is great
BAD- Something is going out of way!!

Visit friends and friends visit me.

Dih..daa..dih..daa..there goes 1 week of Chinese New Year.

Well, perhaps this year New Year is as good as previous years.

But, I will be looking forward for next year, before I will be flying (hopefully) and celebrate my next CNY in India. =P

The 7 Great Wonders

2010-02-28T05:00:00.006+08:00

Stepping into this era of the new year for almost 2 months already, much have been done and more to be said. Either it is meant to be happy or sad; it’s all about life story worth mesmerizing and ponders upon. As they are what that makes me better than yesterday and be more ready for tomorrow, I foresee the ups and downs as a worthy lesson throughout the years.

I have taken the yesterday’s failure as my tomorrow’s strength. But I have never and will not revolve around the circle of failure but instead evolving myself towards betterment. However, it may not be good enough in the eyes of others. What I am sure; time is the best platform to prove my little dynamic positive change as time passes by if I am given the second chance. As long as I uphold my principles and beliefs, I shall not be shattered away by difficulties but instead stood firmly on where I am throughout the way.

What are principles for me? Well, I can just state that principles are what I felt whatever right to do. So what it actually means? It simply just reveals me as a person that will do anything as long it will not hurt, injured or harm anyone I care for. Many and myself think that upholding such principal will just lose my self-aggressiveness or you may want to call it assertiveness too. As sometimes when I am playing too safe, I will then lose my natural self and being too robotic in my daily life. But, what can I do? It has been there and it will always be there. I don’t think myself or people around me would see me not being myself just to be what others think is ideal or right for me. As the saying goes, I, me, myself.

Hence, there must always be a mutual understanding between friends. It just means I shall put my leg onto your shoe and you put yours onto mine. Only that, we know what each other felt. Or not, the person judging our right and wrong will definitely be easier than the one solving the problem. For me, I have been using my heart and feelings for relationship-either family or friends, but I use my mind and wisdom for their problems. Only that, I shall pour my love to all I care, but I shall use my intellectual consideration and not emotion.

Writing into more exciting part, I shall begin my 2010 diary by actually saying the 7 Great Wonders happening for everything that happen chronologically:

1.Resuming back to life as student in INTEC. Well, the Cendana-sick does happen when I am in Penang. Maybe not that significant, but want it or not, Cendana has been the second home.

2.Attended the KKB camp. I cannot believe I have miss out so much fun before this if I have not attended this camp. The beating of the freezing cold water from the waterfall until to the jungle trekking going under rocks and over the bushes will be an experience I treasure and capture as long as I can in myself.

3.PARTY!! Celebrating friends’ birthday and attending friends’ birthday party. I guess this is another new experience for me. We have not done this cheeky plan in high school last time. The entire surprises arranged with planning give a great satisfaction when it actually means something to the celebrated birthday boy and definitely means a lot to myself to see the smiles and laughter filling the atmosphere.

4.Outing!! Statistically, the number of outings for this semester has increases dramatically. Haha…”thanx” to some people who will ask (What is the plan for this week??? ) when it reaches Friday. But I wonder how dull life can be for my Saturday if we were not at least loitering around and going out together.

5.Since “Wonder” doesn’t necessarily mean to be only positive events, so I guess losing my laptop is also some “WONDER” things to happen. Haih, said about that, it is saddening. But, well saying more won’t help. But, I should confess it’s my fault.

6.Chinese New Year!!! GONG XI FA CAI(leave this first as they will be lotz to write after Chap Goh Meh)

7.Finally return to the life of Malay Language. I thought I will not step into this world anymore. But, as the saying goes, setinggi-tinggi tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga… … haha but of course that is not what it means.

A Transition of Time

2010-01-03T11:45:00.008+08:00

What will come..will come

So, want it or not, the good and the bad have to be celebrated equally happy (maybe this is not an honest line from me)

When everyone supposed to be going for the 2010 New Year countdown, just guess where am I?
Funeral.

Sadly, my cousin’s father-in-law has peacefully departed to the after world.

My relationship with the dead and alive wasn’t close. But actually I really choose to attend that than a New Year countdown for many reasons..

Firstly, I am sure not much will be attending the funeral since it’s a big day for many.
Secondly, New Year is just a day in another year. No big deal.

Anyway, I seriously enjoyed myself looking at the procession as well as folding joss paper there.

It has been a long time after I went off to Cendana. But of course I don’t expect to do this often.

I went back at 10pm.

Looking at the remaining time, I thought if I can still make it to meet my high school friends which have asked me to meet them in a rented apartment to celebrate New Year.

Rush back. Throw some food into my bag. Grab some firecrackers. Change into a better outfit. And Go!!

Play cards with them. Win few rounds. But mostly, we were chit-chatting.

As we entered 2010, we rush out and release some fireworks.

All the residents put their heads out looking at us.

Feeling so embarrassed with that unneeded attention, we went in.

Continue playing until almost 1am before I decided to go back as I need to pack my stuff.

For New Year morning went to find Boon Wue that is working as a promoter.

Helped him to fold the clothes there and even get some customers for him.

Instead of appreciating that, he complained that I add more work for him. I feel bad for the employer who hired this kind of terrible promoter.

Went for a movie with Randy. We look like a gay couple in the cinema =P

I guess that’s the simplest way to welcome New Year.

Most important, I have good times with them before coming back and meet another group of “swt swt” friends in Cendana.

Good and Bad

2009-12-27T22:46:00.005+08:00

Though I have hold on to the Tao teachings since the day I know this world, I never know it has been revealed earlier than I know.

But, I am not disappointed though.

I realise many teachings of it, I have been that way.

By the way of Tao, the way of life.

In Tao, right is not always right and so the otherwise.

This because right and wrong in Tao’s mind is the same. It applies to any pairs of opposite.

Take GOOD AND BAD to be an example.

What is GOOD? It’s the opposite of BAD.

Exactly. And BAD is the opposite of GOOD.

With GOOD, only we understand about BAD. So, one has give meaning to one another.

That is what Tao mean by GOOD and BAD is the same.

Therefore, Tao don’t believe in doing any CHANGE especially in human mind.

It is called ‘wu wei’ that I have once against it.

Let us see…
This because when we teach our child NOT TO STEAL..There’s where they learn about STEALING.

This is because when we teach the adults about ROAD RULES..then they BREAK RULES more
Hence GOOD BAD..EVIL ANGEL are all the same.

Introducing one is as introducing another, the opposite.

Therefore,, it’s impossible for moral correctness in Tao.

Hence, what can only control human mind is the Tao, the way of life.

Therefore, nothing can change it other than Tao himself.

But where can we find Tao?

It’s not a scripture or even a holy text. It’s just Tao.

No wonder I have live together with Tao until now though I have known "non-Tao" more than Tao.

It's because when I learn the "non-Tao", I realise what is Tao actually.

Lame..Yea, that is how lame a teaching can be.

Yet Tao never stops. Why?
Because it isn't trying to accomplish anything.

I am here to win, you know what to do?

2009-12-26T14:45:00.012+08:00

Finally, IUC ended in its usual norm and convention while preserving its tradition as usual years.

I was so irresponsible that I can be there only for at least 6 trainings out of the many zillions they have.

Well, so I guess their achievement of success belongs to the seniors with the respective leaders and members especially.

-Only those who look far and high shall meet success-

They have trained so hard that they want to win so much. Looking on them are exactly looking back my older days.

A few sayings during the competition have caught my mind and make me think further.

Samuel says: Don’t play your mind games with me. I have known you for more than 3 years.
Haha..mind games? Yes, he is right.

Mind games are all about convincing, motivating, framing thoughts and instilling feelings.

With respect, you gain respect. With care, you gain care. With love, you gain love.

-Mind Games-

Bhavesh says: I hear you saying the same thing for more than 3 times.
Haha.. well not much comment. But he is right again.

It’s not lacking of idea. But facts have to be consistent that always revolve around the same circle of thoughts.

I am glad and proud of the fellow members and leaders. Hopefully, all of us shall continue to uphold the spirit and struggle till the very last drop of tears.

-Only those who are strong shall rise to the top-

“Even the boy who walked beside me as just an observer doing nothing have let me witness him achieve excellently now, I wonder what else I want.”

This place have leave me with ample of sweet bitter memories..Hence, I am not afraid to say that my heart still not completely dismiss from this Unit.

-From learners to leaders-

But as time passes by, I have to admit my end is near.. And therefore, I shall kuai kuai be the ex-committee in the future competitions.

-Just don’t let this glory diminish and faded away-

Returning and Leaving

2009-12-11T04:21:00.000+08:00

Time really flies..my settlement on this peaceful land is going to end soon..

Of course I am returning again for the next holidays, but surely I am going to miss here, at least for now.

I am surely going to miss the kenduri(s) for khatan sunat (circumcision for the Muslim children when they attain puberty) or even the akad nikah (marridge).

I counted. I attended at least 5 kenduri(s) of many events..imagine how much I had 'top up' to my body weight..haih =.=

I wil miss the live performance using the gendangs, gong, seruling and kompang.

The cheerful and closely-bonded ties between relatives and family members in the wedding

My uncle challenge me the Alor Setar "so called" famous Laksa with Penang Asam Laksa..haha which laksa you think will win leh? Obviously Penang la..but good try to the Kedah version

haha..round-about in the town reminds me a lot of Shah Alam..tis wan wif Rukun Negara symbol..there is another smaller wan i think in front..with another 1 haha many la

With the hot weather, I am extremely grateful to get free coconuts just outside my grandfather's house..but you have to pluck it ourself la..worth the sweat we drop

I finish 4 young and fresh coconuts..skip lunch for that

This can be a routine as well, boring yet fun!!

Catching peacock fish from the long strech of river along the valley,
Striding down the road in the evening feeling the breeze passing through you,
Go for a basketball game with some kampung children,
Curi some telur ayam...ssshhhshhhshh don't tell anyone leh
Go for a roti canai with cousins in the late night.
Hike Gunung Jerai and be satisfied at the PEAK!! (never try before yet) haha halfway still

There's many many more stuff I miss to do here...but to keep the best for the last will be:

The green loving scenery that will welcome you every morning and say goodbye to you when the sun set every evening.

Say Hi to Penang again...and see what is going to be for Inter Unit Competition..
Pray hARD

Rich and Poor

2009-12-10T03:46:00.004+08:00

Today, I walked alone down the road of an old village just around my grandparent's hometown.

My cousins wanted to follow. But I just want to be alone.

Most of the time, if I walked with them, I just cannot concentrate with what is surrounding me. Accompanying them instead.

I am glad that I get the scene all by my own today.

Firstly, I saw 1 old Malay guy clearing the bushes around his house. He is a tomb maker (I wonder if that's what you called them).

He talk with some Kedah Malay Slang. I understood. I replied with a Hi, I smile and I walk pass him.

Then, I saw a few Malay childrens playing badminton. They were shouting something. If I am not mistaken, they should be cheering "Lee Chong Wei".

After that, on my left and right, I saw luxurious houses on my left and right.

These structures were never erected when I came here maybe about 4 years ago.

Things have changed.

I cleared my steps moving on and think...

Are they poor before and now they are rich?
What are poor and what are rich?
Why are we poor and why are we rich?

Hmm...questions by questions struck my head causing greater migraine...especially in this poor little curious boy like me..

Well, poor is a state of poverty..it is just a measure of property.
Rich is a state of luxury..owning many assets and rights and the vice versa.

Well, so what if there are no poors 1 day?

Then, it will be the end of the world!!!

Why??

Because when 1 day everyone think they are rich enough, nobody will compete to be richer, hence no development in economic growth, a nation will diminish its overall performance, and a civilisation shall collapse!!!

Maybe this is a slippery slope ( a fallacy I learn in my critical thinking lesson)..

But I let my imagination continue swaying out from reality...

A country can only prosperous as long there are poors..

As long the poors work hard to be rich, then the country will automatically be stronger and richer too..

So, how to stop the end of the world I mean just now?

Then, the poor must think they are poorer and work harder and harder...
On the other hand, the rich must think they are not rich enough (or better still, they are extremely poor)

Then, definitely everyone will strive their best to improve their financial stability.

I am not joking..

Look at people like Loh Boon Siew (Tan Sri), Yap Chor Ee..all this are rich taukay last time..

What happen to them now?

Losing in their rich luxurious dreamland...because their generations later on think they are rich enough and hence there is nothing to fill back.

This is the end of the world I mean...

SO!!

C'mon poor people (like me)

Let us rise and be no shame to admit of our poverty

In fact, we are the backbone to the development of the country.
(It is because it's more possible for the poorer to be poor and then rich..

There are smaller number of population for those rich to be richer and richest

Eg: there are only 1 Bill Gates you can be.

But there are many many many people which can gain richer every day.

So, we are the majority..
We are the deciding factor..
We are the roots of the nation..

Let's not look down at ourselve..
The country need us more than the rich..

But thinking we are POOR is just not enough

DO SOMETHING TO CHANGE OUR LIFE..

Let us lift our head high when someone feel we are not rich..that are what they suppose to think

And that is what we gonna change every moring whenwe open our eyes...

-I am a very bad manipulater whahaha-

(alright better I sleep before I got spank..my grandpa have came out and warned me for the 4th time..)

Good Luck to the Poors!!

Music of the Night

2009-12-08T00:00:00.010+08:00

As the melody of Music of the Night filling up the space of the living room, my thoughts flying far recalling life before today.

As soon as I return from Shah Alam, I have did nothing much beneficial to the society except to myself.

I have over-charged myself when I sleep almost more than 10 hours a day.

Other than that, nothing excites me other than going for the recent LTC by Penang Free School MRC where I get to meet many new born babies of the society.

As usual, I have give some hard words to them and make more than little of them to be offended, haha even though some make out a forced smile but I know what running down their thoughts.

Wil Sern is right. When I am back, I just cannot control that hard talk style. Bossy, aggressive and arrogant. haha but this time, I am asked to be that. I have been so calm and steady before I got into my unusual tune.

Yet I am still labelled as "soft action" leader..as I have neither show my temper or raise my voice with anyone before..but air tenang jangan kausangka tiada buaya lolz

Haha..nvm hate me for my mouth..not my heart..I am always a kind person haha =P

So sad I got to leave the camp at about 4am.

Driving on my grandfather's road (since nobody is using that), I tried some rempit style on a 60-70 km/h speed. Nothing much can be done since I am still driving slow.

Greet my parents happily (after some disastrous lecture for coming back late), I quickly pack my stuff.

When I realise, I was sleeping on the chair with my legs on the bed.

My dad got so angry and that anger wakes me up (so it's a good thing to happen) before I quickly clean myself.

I just realise seriously I need to follow them to Genting (aiyo so reluctant).

The next time I realise, I am in Genting already. I think I have make my life productive totally by sleeping throughout the journey.

Go around the typical style other than went on the last cable car on 11pm with my friend from Tawau.

Chatted along the way with scary and fearful feeling (not to hide anymore that I am aerophobic actually)

Feel so sorry as I have to "dumped" my grandfather in the casino with my dad as my Tawau friend keep on bugging me to bring him around..sorry =(

Went for karaoke and realise that I can still sing (though Tiong always say I can only sing 1 type of song which is *@!^ ). .haha

Went to Chin Swee Temple before I "dumped" my Tawau friend this time in the outdoor theme park so I can accompany my grandfather...yay =(

They have their alcoholic night satisfying themselves with beer and wine while I isolated myself chatting in MSN with my mobile..banned alcoholic drinks

I felt so tired but I will b glad to return Penang again as the Penang trip will begin.

A Place I (want to) be Belongs to

2009-11-27T09:27:00.014+08:00

I have never found a place where I can feel that comfortable with

Despite it can be very stink and disgusting at times,
Or even fear you with some annoying leech that will stuck to your leg,

But,

It can be so quiet and peaceful as if you are the only one on Earth,
The cooling and refreshing breeze that will actually delete your problems and stress
If not permanent at least for a moment in my life.

However,

I may still find it hard for me to be here
When you find yourself stranded alone on this little place
With no connection to the outside world for a moment

But,
With the warmth and blessing showered upon me (Thank God)
With the welcoming and harmonious sound of nature

I wonder how perfect if life can be forever here

However,
I realise this is not my life
I am not belong to this place

But
I will remember them
The days when I cycle and saying "Hi" to anyone outside
Walking from the paddy field crossing the Jerai mountain till I reach a small school

Though
this place may not be mine
But it will remain as
A Place I (want to) be Belong to

The Finale

2009-11-23T00:30:00.004+08:00

What a traumatic life I have gone through with no Internet connection for nearly 3 days...in fact,with no hand phone as well..haha civilisation is as if has vanished in my life

Therefore, once I get back to my laptop, I am so eager to complete this final piece of life in Cendana in collaboration with Pre INTEC Cendana.

Part 2: The Finale for Semester June-Dec

Despite experiencing all the bad things before that, there are some worthy memorable life here.

We have never let our taste bud to undergo humiliation by eating the same food every day.

This is because weekends will be our 'Home cook food' day when we can come out with many home sweet home food.

Trust me..it has proven to induce homesick feeling in at least 1 out of the many though we have accept negative criticism too by at least 1 out of the many...not to name them haha

Besides that, it's nice to remember that though test is around the corner, there will be some mangkuks that will come and trick us by playing cards with us.

Maybe that is one of the factor, I didn't do well and they did the otherwise...(must be careful next time) haha

It is also sweet to remember when all of us can sit together on the floor and enjoy our meal.

I think my room 2/210 is the room that host this kind of gathering the most in Cendana.

Other than that, I believe my group of friends should be awarded the 1Malaysia award for successfully promoting unity within many races in Malaysia.

We have come to an extend where the Malays and Indians enjoying moon cake and holding lanterns with the Chinese as well as the Chinese helping themselves out in finishing the kuih raya by the Malays, as all of us really really like it.

In fact, I think I am too polluted by the political ideology by naming my friends the Malays, Chinese and Indians when they are all Malaysians...(but I wonder too why do I need to arrange Malay Chinese Indians...if I arrange Indians, Malays, Chinese..what will happen har? hahaha just cannot run away lar..lol racism)

Well I want to write more, but I am afraid it becomes boring.

Let me mark an end by saying, I am enjoying what is going on.

Pre INTEC CENDANA

2009-11-18T00:50:00.012+08:00

Wow.. in a blink of an eye..it is already more than half a month since my last post..

Well, my time is just condensed to answer the call by the semester examination that lasted a week and ended about 3 days ago.

Well, that is not important, since it's over. I will just keep my fingers crossed and pray hard.

I have never mentioned much about my current life in INTEC, since I thought it will be so dull to write about it.

But surely to be different now, as there have been so much ups and downs happening here.

I would not be able to write what happen from the very first day, so I will just break it into few parts.

Part 1: Pre-INTEC CENDANA

Registered and met my room mates with the name of Chien Chong,Iskandar,Izzat,Tiong, and Wai Hong (arranged alphabetically, no bias here).

Later on, Iskandar left, Wai Hong often return to Puchong, and Izzat is only once in the blue moon seeing him in the room with us except when he is back to sleep.

So basically, you can know who is always around. Sometimes, it is kind of a pleasant thing to happen since it is more peaceful (not to mean they are noisy), more space around(as we can use their tables) and more freedom (as we can kutuk and gossip about them)

Room mates: from left we hav Tiong, Wai Hong, me Chien Chong

Before our class begin, we have this Minggu Mesra Siswa. Yes, it is fun and interesting, but maybe if you ask me, that should be the last time I would like to attend that.

Throughout that week, I know Tee Kee Chun, which later known as David =P other than Bobby, which later on very less often visited us until the last few weeks before sem break or when he need some help (wahaha, I knew you might read this, but still that is how I perceived).

Besides, I know this passive quite and boring guy called Ming Khai in MMS. He sounds so indecisive and wasting his parents money when he initially chosen Dentistry but later switched to Pharmacy because of JPA. His outlook with partially tinted glass with sleepy face and uncomb hair with that white arm sling bag just tell me, this is a very boring lame guy to know much, despite I have tried to converse wtih him a few times.

Other than that, I get to know Ming Keat, Bing Yang, Gordon, and Khoo after a few times knock onto them in front the room. Anyway, if you don't know, they are our close neighbour. That time, I didnt want to talk much with them, especially Ming Keat, because he really look so cocky, must be because he thinks that he is so great. But my perception actually change when I visited them for the first time. But if you ask me why, better not to know =P.

From behind left: Ming Khai (lame), Khoo (ego), Five (acting cool)
From behind right: Tiong (smile-less), me (no comment), and Ming Keat (cocky)

In school, I know many more new friends, new simply mean more girls actually. With 16 girls and 8 guys, it makes this class to suffer of the "genderically" mutation. Anyway, we have lots of fun and excitement.

Specially thanks to the English lecturer, Miss Hanie which have bring us all the meaning in INTEC filled with unconditional love (not forgetting her real life stories where we will keep our lips seal forever about that)

Miss Hanie, the one and only unique English lecturer

In class, I know more about people like Taufiq, Amin,and Parthee. Initially, all were really shy. I can still remember how quite Parthee was for the first 2 weeks of class, though later on the otherwise happen. Besides, Mr Five who used to ask me what I have for breakfast. And when I said "half boiled egg", he will show be a grunt on his face. Since then, I have answered him the same answer because I hated that reaction.

Well, everything just move on, from days to weeks, and from weeks to months. Quiz followed by Test, Test followed by Quiz and it goes on repetitively. After class, ALM cafe for lunch, stay back for KO-PLN, rush for the bus or have to be as if sitting in a roller coaster or going for a Formula 1 race swirling left and right, reach Cendana with sleepy eyes, change into casual, walk to Pasar for Mak Indon, come back and study, wake up for tomorrow and the day just repeats itself. Sigh...

So what, is this a LIFE? Well, it can be a YES, it can be a NO... but if this is what going to constantly repeat itself for the next semester or for the next 2 years, I can really become crazy... Something need to be fixed.. That will be the turning point of my life in INTEC and Cendana as well as the peak of momentum for this semester.

Let us keep that for the next time or it will be too long.

me and Him

2009-10-30T15:58:00.002+08:00

Life for the past few days have been so uncertain.

Maybe it’s just illusion of mind or even just due to the paranoid state of mind facing with matters around me.

I have never fully believe that God and religion is the place for eternal peace. It’s just a self-comfort, it’s just a self-satisfaction. In other words, we explained the unseen with the unseen so it can be visible and acceptable in our mind.

We take things for granted and push everything to fate. We are relying and depending to our self-imagination. If we would belief God is great, hence He is great. When we pray for something to be fulfilled, it turns out to be, we thank Him. Who makes Him great? Our mind.

Maybe it’s really so silly and unacceptable. How can we believe in such unseen force that cannot be proven by equations or whatever so called Laws and Rules in scientific studies?

Yet, he is the most powerful force and most accepted theories in this universe.

Maybe that is the only way to say that God is that simple, His oneness is so easily to be understood and take no genius to believe Him.

We don’t need to simplify him in any ways, or either we need to acquire knowledge to learn him.
He is not a subject like Chemistry or Physics. He is not an object, to be labelled with adjectives.

He is a belief. He is what we believe. Are we going to believe what others believe just because that is how people educate us about God?

He have followed me and it goes the same to me also since the day I know Him.

I have laughed about Him. I have challenged Him. I have teased Him.

It would be hypocritical if I would deny that.

But yet, I know who is He.

In my life, my biggest bet is the way how i want to perceive the greatest power as- God.

And my losing in this bet surely going to send me to the burning of fire in Hell.

I am not afraid not because me undermined Him.

It's the Love of God, and not the Fear of God to believe Him.

I shall be what I am as long I know my conscience and principles.

Fortis Atque Fidelis

2009-10-22T22:07:00.003+08:00

On yesterday 21.10.2009, the Grand Old Lady has entered into its another golden year, the 193th anniversary.

Being the oldest Alma mater in the Southeast Asia, definitely it will be all pride and fame for all Frees to celebrate this historical and grand occasion.

In fact, only when I am writing this, I just realise I am one of the very many Old Frees all around the world.

Down the memory lane, many sweet and bitter experiences I have gone through in this place called Penang Free School.

Not forgetting those days when I usually sleep in the school for holidays, running around with the Junior Coms or even counting the stars together in the middle of the night on the cricket pitch.

This is also the place where I have cause so much dispute with the school authorities. Maybe I am still young that time (and I am not really that old now as well), but yet I believe I am still holding on the same stand with what I did till today.

However, it's not the main concern about how much I have gone through but how well I have gone through.

Yet, this question will only remain as a question as the road to success is still far away.

However, what is distance when time will always linearly move us forward if we dare to strive further and lift up our self up in the shine of success.

With this, I hope the Grand Old Lady can always remain relevant and continue to produce leaders (Tunku Abdul Rahman, Jimmy Choo, Tun Lim Chong Eu, P. Ramlee as the very few names which are also the Old Frees)for the nation or even the world.

The motto "Fortie Atque Fidelis" will remain flowing as Free School is only for the brave and true.

2009-10-17T05:52:00.013+08:00

-sigh of relief-

After hours of discussion with Bobby to complete his decision making speech, finally I get myself some free time to lay back and write something here.

Today, I expected to be something boring. Perhaps because I will be going for the Ko-PLN visit. But, in the end it was ok and I managed to find some joy and fun in it.

Went to the National Heart Institute (Institut Jantung Negara). Nothing make me like about that place except..

Can you believe this is how a hospital look like..elegant and artistic

I get to see the room Tun Mahathir admitted during his bypass surgery there

Went to the National Art Gallery before to the National Blood Bank

First time to donate blood

Many benefits, but the most importantly,

Get a Milo, bread, kuih and a pear after the donation =P..

Once I reached back, I saw Wai Hong waiting me. It means that I wont have the time to sleep since I promise to help him in his Demonstrative Speech text.

It was worth (and rare) when he wanted to treat me for dinner. More than happy, we went to the Bandar Lama Petaling Jaya have Hokkien Char and Loh Mee.

Then, to Giant, get some durians (complement to Chien Chong in successfully bargaining until we manage to get the durian so cheap)

Then to Tesco to buy the broom, mope and cleanser.

Reach back here, quickly heat up the "da pao" food for other neighbours we have invited.

Very nice to see everyone gather around. Have been a long time 2/210 experience this loud and welcoming voices.

Open the laptop, discuss with Five (yeah..new names to be installed into the blog) discussing about his Demonstrative Speech idea..hopefully turns out well

Then, finally when I want to go and sleep, Bobby ask me to help him.

And now, here is where I am...

What I am trying to say here is:
1. I thought life is going to be miserable for me today. But then it turns up to be exactly different from my expectation.
2. Life is just so uncertained and undetermined.
3. But by the time you realise it, your day is almost ending.
4. Though we may not have enough, but it's too late to realise that.
5. Thus, enjoy every moment even if it's good or bad.
6. It might sounds "action speak louder than words", but indeed with every gratefullness and appreciation to your day everyday, its not hard.

=.=sleepy

Dulu, Kini dan Selamanya

2009-10-16T00:41:00.002+08:00

Dulu Malaysia Boleh,
Sekarang kita ambil rasuah.

Dulu kita ber-Islam Hadhari,
Masih berasuah lagi.

Hari ini 1Malaysia,
Rasauh, Rasuah tidak berubah.

Selagi kita berasuah
tiada gunanya kita berkata petah.

Selagi kita mempunyai pemimpin rasuah
tiada gunanya kita menjanjikan sini dan sana.

Selagi kita berasuah
kita bukan bangsa merdeka.

Sesungguhnya
kalau kita mahu melihat perubahan
Perangilah
Perjuangkanlah ke titik penghabisan
Demi maruah dan martabat bangsa
Kalau kita benar-benar memilikinya.

Sentenced to death "AGAIN' 2

2009-10-11T02:34:00.002+08:00

For those remember the story "Sentenced to Death "AGAIN"', this will be the continued part of the story.

So, since I am not happy with my lecturer, with no second thoughts, I went up to the Administrator and sigh my regrets to them.

To be fair, the Head of Department insist an extraordinary polling day to decide if my assignment really deserve the best regconition.

Finally, on the 10.10.2009, all students gathered and make their choice.

On 10am, the lecturer announced this as the result:

1. My lecturer is indeed should be blamed for not giving my rights to compete with others. Hence, he will have to be ready to meet the highest authority to make an explanation.

2.Meanwhile, my artwork wasn't actually voted to be the best piece. Maybe I just think too good of myself.

In short, this might be the best way to solve problems. Though I am rejected, I gain a recognition and justice from the people. Yet, I realise I am not that great and welcomed by others, after all.

Hopefully, everything will be returned to order again.

Serungkai Abjad Berenda Kata

2009-10-08T01:01:00.002+08:00

Di hari kini biarlah gembira,
Apa di esok Tuhan yang tentu;
Suka gembira sesama kita,
Duka merana sendiri tahu.

Turun dan naik lumrah manusia,
Asalkan kita penuh harapan;
Tinggi dan rendah hadapi sama,
Walaupun kita keseorangan.

Semalam kini kian berubah,
Ada yang hilnag banyak yang tiada;
Mungkinkah hati sudahpun goyah,
Sifat dan rupa kian berbeza.

Kaya dan miskin tiada diukur,
Asalkan setia tiada berganjak;
Kawan yang ada diafaz syukur,
Moga bersambung ibarat ombak.

Terus berjalan terus melangkah,
Selagi jalan di depan mata;
Terus bersimpul enggan berpangkah,
Selagi belum sampai masanya.

Walau di kini teringat semalam,
Terungkai rapat hati ke mata;
Hanya kulafaz buat yang faham,
Moga hariku masih bermakna.

Cause and Effect Essay

2009-10-05T16:56:00.004+08:00

While I am collecting information about what might be out for tomorrow cause and effect essay writing test, I thought maybe I should practice one here and let you to be the marker.

How the cause from myself affect my friendship relationship.

It's going to be nearly 5 months me landed on this place known as INTEC. By now, maybe I can proudly claimed that I am getting use with the environment here. But then, at the very beginning, perhaps till now, I still feel not use to the friends I have here.

At first, I wonder, why can't I have those friends that are the same as I do in Free School last time. Writing this sentence reminds me of many of the oldies that we cherish the good moments together. Anyway, let me write more about the present..

At here, some people just get their nerve on me as they think my sarcasm is too concentrated..haha this is not a new thing to me ever since I'm in High School. When I talk rudely (the usual style), people say I bully them...haih..Sarawakians haha there are even not few that think I am so stubborn and never give in..." grumpy" they or maybe He, call it...

So, what happen is this.. Sin Hui is getting so "sweet" nowadays. But then the scars of my behaviour can still be seen here and there.. But what to do, everyone here is so smart. If I offended anyone, I might not only lose a friend but maybe my life as well..they kill you intellectually =.=". Anyway, I am happy with what is happening now, grateful and improving them. I am not sure how far this road of life we will be walking, but surely going to be a chapter of life for me to think of and smile upon in my older days in future.

So, what I am trying to conclude here is: what i am before this have become a cause to the effect of what I am now. And what I am now is going to be the effect to how friendship will be around me. Indirectly, this changes of relationship that approach me will change myself to fit me into the current situation.

This is how the cause and effect of myself towards friendship. The past affect the present to let the present to affect the future. It's just the wheel of life anyway.

Well, I am sure this is a boring piece, But haih I wanted to try to write something about myself, as it's encouraged by Ming Khai. But, I still stick to same principle, when you write something about yourself, "Who actually gonna care"...I think I better write about politics in future..

Logged out.

Salam Lebaran, Singkapan Kenangan

2009-10-01T00:07:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow I am going to sit for English test, but seems I am still bravely sitting in front here putting up a new post.

Well, that's because a few unforgettable thoughts and happenings that happened throughout this Raya have run through my mind.

A few to highlight here:

1. I get to wish more Malay friends for this year Raya (mostly my new friends from INTEC)
2. How cool we were when we "ON" the Raya songs and enjoyed them together in class before the semester break begun.
3. Went to Radin's house (ooo new name in the blog, haha) was also a new experience. After knowing him nearly 4 years more, this is the first time I actually celebrate Raya in his house since I couldn't make it last year.
4. Enjoying kuih raya brought by my Malay friends just catch another glimpse of Malaysian backdrop of the colours of unity. Thanks for that delicious kuih...
5. Surprisingly, Miss Nadiah (if you don't know, my Chemistry lecturer) brought us also some nice baked cereals (sort of Corn Flakes) with mouth watering cake. Thanks for remembering us =)
6. Manage to text many losing contact friends, teachers and anyone I met throught my years of networking. Good to see the bonding of friends to be formed again.

I don't know what's more coming up to mark this celebration for the month of Syawal.

What I know, this very simple way of us celebrating Raya together with close friends is more enough than those mega open house.

At least, we found our common difference and we celebrate it with respect and cohesiveness.

I don't know how is Raya actually mean to others especially the non-Muslim, but that is how I sketch it in my mind.

Not too late for the Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin wishes.

2009-09-24T20:05:00.004+08:00

There has been lots to say about our popular branding of 1Malaysia by the new premiership. However, there are more "1s" that reflect the Malaysian culture and living habits. A few exapmles are like this:

Apek: Ah Mat, itu kain berapa jual?
Peniaga: Aiyah, you punya ah...dua ringgit ok lah...
Apek: Apalah, Ah Mat..1 ringgit sudahla..apa cekik darah la
Peniaga: Ini macam ah...okla 1Ringgit pun jadilah.
Apek: hehehe

Ali: Boleh jadi teman saya yang 1..oo cik siti?
Siti: Selama-lama kamulah 1 di hatiku.
Ali: (tersenyum) tapeee untuk 1Malam sahaja ok???
Siti : OOO begini yah...(pappp) nah!! 1Tamparan ini rasakan

-grabbing more ideas for more SATUs to write about-

Sentenced to death 'AGAIN'

2009-09-22T21:19:00.000+08:00

OMG!! I've forgotten to bring my Geography presentation to lecture today.

I have spend many sleepless night just to finish that presentation.

And if I'm submitting that late, I am surely going to be penalised unnecessarily

I don't want that to happen...seriously!!!

I wanted to lie and say that my friend accidentally spilled a cup of coffee on it and I've to redo it rather than admitting that I'm careless and fully at fault.

I might get a second chance, at least...

But WAIT...

"Honestly is the best policy"...immediately the whisper of voices running down my doubtful soul.

I cannot lie...it's wrong...and it's not fair to the others...it is really my fault..

OK..Fine!! I am going to speak the truth....I told my lecturer that..

Without hesitation, my lecturer insist me to run around the college field to pay for my carelessness.

I willingly accepted it and went straight to the field without questioning.

As soon as tomorrow, I submitted my assignment with a smile in my face and promise I won't repeat the mistake again.

Although I am sad because my lecturer put a big "LATE" sign on the front cover, yet mistake is already done and nothing can be changed...a mistake is a mistake

Despite that "LATE" on it, my assignment has voted to be the best piece and most favour among my classmates..

Hurray!! my friends actually admire my work=P

But then, the heartless lecturer with all means have stop me from getting the honour by rejecting it.

The reason: I have submitted it LATE...

However, I’ve got punished by running around the school field.

Besides, it was not stated that ’late hand in work' will not be entertained.

A criminal is still allowed to practice his citizenship when he is released. Eg: to vote, to search for a job, to get married and send his children to school.

Therefore, what my lecturer is doing is like simply penalising me twice and sentenced me to death again.

The fact is all my schoolmates have understand my lateness..However, the quality and performance of my work was not compromised to the least.

Hence, I should be allowed to be given a right to compete equally and fairly.

Many may stand on their own different views and opinions but I leave all to justice to speak the truth and nothing other than that...

P.S This is merely a fictional story that is not related to anyone or anything that is still alive, existed, or dead as it's just for entertainment and reading only.

Still cannot sleep

2009-09-22T04:17:00.003+08:00

Looking at the clock ticking nearly to 4.20am, I put away my Bio notes and hook onto my laptop.

So frustrated as I've to redo my notes because I've loss them somewhere.

But thinking that it is one of the way to revise, it neutralises my annoyance.

Then, I browse through my previous post.

Saw so many spelling errors and mistake in sentence structures

Haha..feel of laughing and embarassesed with it. But then, I am not...????

1st basically nobody bothered to even read my blog except YOU...as you are still reading

2nd this blog was initially to simply give me an oppurtinity to write more. So, what's wrong doing some mistakes like what you also do in your essay writing.

3rd my English have been popularly known to be rotten and upside down. So, it's just reflecting the truth and I see nothing wrong about it =P

Whatever it is, this blog is supposed to be that way.

Write with no sense of responsibility or also known as freedom of writing...hahaha

-its going to be a boring holiday-

Break-fasting

2009-09-10T18:40:00.008+08:00

Yesterday, we 10M9 students at the date 09.09.09 went to open fast in Plaza Alam Central.

The feeling was awesome and memorable.

Throughout the dinner, we spent our time chattering, teasing each other, and seeing each other how we suffer at the end of their fasting period.

Personally, this must be my best open fasting until we almost forgot that we are actually fasting for nearly 13 hours already.

We got alot of fun with Miss Hanie, our English lecturer and the bonding within us have got closer and stronger (something to be very glad of)

This must be one of the best and meaningful Malaysian backdrop that colours the true meaning of unity, understanding, mutual respect and cohesion among different races.

-1Malaysia-

2009-09-06T00:58:00.029+08:00

Have been a long time I write a piece of my day...well just feel of not writing.

But who cares!!

Life still going on as normal and happy at times...but at least still with meaning.

Many things happened actually- studying in a new place with new people and new challenges.

Anyway, let us just capture some sweet memories deserved to be embedded in mind.

I am here writing after a long journey touring KL Times Square.

Generally, I feel its better than the Penang Times Square. I don't mind saying it is so much much better.

I went there with friends to watch the Final Destination. My first 18 SG movie =)

When will be my first 18SX ah? haha

I am not good in writing comment about movies...so maybe you should just watch yourself

Anyway, after that went to Arcade...lol it will be boring if I go to Queensbay one, but this was kinda fun and exciting. I got the second edition Sin Hui killing with gun (if you know the first edition picture in my Friendster).

From left: Chien Choong, you (if you feel you are there) and Ming Khai

I will talk about them 1 by 1 next time...

From the best view : The food we ordered

Just if you curious, that is Tiong Shu Zhao and his Taylor's friend Ignitious (I might spelled wrongly) that came from Sawarak...
(background sound: boooo)

After that, walk around and around surrounding the "not round" Times Square.

After we got a call from Mr Stomach, we departed and went for a Steamboat and BBQ in Hot Teapot Restaurant for our dinner.

I shouldn't be so bad by making you feel of eating here..but the food is still ok and mouth watering especially when I am comparing those I eat always in Shah Alam.

The rest I leave it to you to imagine....

Though it was far (really far) but didn't feel it since it's like an exercise after a heavy stomach we have loaded.

When we reached Cendana ( if you don't know, that's the college I am staying now), my friends and I are extremely exhausted.

But then, think about the fun and joy we have today...just feel best

Cheers...write again in future!!

Mereka Yang Alpa

2009-05-17T00:35:00.003+08:00

Rupanya kita masih alpa,
alpa dibuai mimpi kemewahan
fitrah
iman
sudah hancur punah
dilumat-lumatkan
dicincang halus
gerigi tajam korupsi dan kolonisasi

Rupanya kita masih alpa
alpa dibelai senyuman mengkhianati
sumpah
janji
sudah ditembusi
rebah tidak bermaya
dicengkam kuasa haloba

Rupanya kita masih alpa
alpa digodai fitnah ranah
agama
akal dan minda
sudah lemah mengata
tunduk iblis neraka
dikawal nafsu gelora

Ya,
tetapi dari kalangan yang alpa
masih hidup yang sedar
akan perjuangan suci
meneruskan yang berterusan
supaya yang alpa
tidak alpa lagi...

-ngsinhui-
0054 17 May 09

Cuti-Cuti Malaysia

2009-05-04T17:12:00.022+08:00

Well, finally no more TVB drama series to watch (really got addicted to it before that), so I guess it's time to just write something here.

As I am still going into a normal life, so nothing abnormal happen =P

I visited Perak last week to check out if anymore riots there (haha believe me)

But I ended up checking on all the famous and delicious food as well as some stunning caves in Perak.

This is not my first time there but this time I guess it's more interesting.

Initially, I was very reluctant to go but after knowing that I don't have any classes to teach so I went (But I missed the Australian Edu Fair, hope nothing much haha!!)

It's was really fun sitting on the car listening my uncle naming all the famous food in Ipoh

Wah!! Yim kok khai laa (salted steam chicken), hor fun laa (something like kuetiow), kai chai peng laa (sort of biscuit), ngau yok min laa, ngah choi kai laa...wah mouth watering man

We reached Ipoh at 12am, so basically the city is already sleeping.

The next day at 6am, everyone was awake EXCEPT me...

Feeling bad and not to offence my grandfather, my body was awaked BUT don't ask about my soul.

Before 8, we were already in Ipoh town. We started our Jalan-jalan Cari Makan adventure.

Hor fun headed the list of meal. I tried the Prawn Mee (Hokkien Mee in Penang). It tastes really really bland and awful.

So, my impression drop tremendously on Ipoh food.

Later, went to Nan Thien Tong (Nan Thien Cave) then the Ling Sen Tong but not the Pih Lih Tong (Perak Cave) this year since it's shut down for safety reason.

My new friend

I seems to be more tired than my grandfather

Another new friend -.-

After that, visited Ipoh Parade, Jusco and then Tesco (boring, lame and pathetic). Everyone will agree that Queensbay Mall is so much better.

After that, tried the ngah choi kai (chicken wif taugeh =) Hmm...no wonder it was Ipoh trademark food.

Went back for a short rest before dinner in a packed and noisy restaurant. Luckily, the food was good.

How long more do we have to wait ??

The next day breakfast was in Fu Shan. I guess whoever visited Ipoh should know this place as my Grandfather said it's established almost 50 years ago.

Well, luckily the dim sum was not as old as the shop as the food was fresh and more varieties as compared to dim sum in Penang.

Finally, it's time to say bye bye to Ipoh.

Reach Penang at 11am and went off straight for tuition class after that.

Life resume to normal but indeed it's a memorable experience filled with a happy stomach.

Buat-buat Angry

2009-02-27T00:34:00.003+08:00

Recently, Mr Singh remark of accusation against the UMNO youth was slammed by the UMNO Youth members.

According to our Menantu-Lah, Mr Singh remark will cause anger and protest of the Malays towards Mr Singh because of Mr Singh rudeness and disloyal to the Paduka Seri.

However, let me just ask that is it true the rakyat are really angry, frustrated or furious against Mr Sing's remark?

I don't think the rakyats are.

Its the rakyat UMNO that care about their their political rice bowl and dishonest struggle for political status.

I don't think at this time when economy is slowing down, retrenchment, recession, people will still divert their attention for this silly matter.

I hope if the UMNO really love the rakyat, PLEASE!! Stop the Pi Mai Pi Mai Tang Tu and focus at their work to serve the people needs .

And Mr Singh to be more sensitive in voicing his opinions.

It's not about either he is the Sultan or not.

It's the matter of respect.

We don't allow anybody to condemn and criticize our parents nor our loved ones.

Its just the same to this matter.

So, choose the right word and let democracy to flow in every Malaysians.

We Malaysians are sicked with the hoo-haa caused by our politicians, seriously.

I don't see what that is so interesting to talk about the constitutional crisis in Perak.

It's and insult to our democracy, its a disgrace to our leaders, and disintegrate the cohesiveness among the Perakians.

If we love the Sultan, then ENOUGH! STOP IT

If we love the people, then ENOUGH! STOP IT

If you love the country then ENOUGH! STOP IT

But if you are still fighting for your self-interest, betraying the Sultan, people and country

Then we are also ENOUGH, then leave the stage like our Hero-Lah...

If Its The Real World

2009-02-19T23:04:00.003+08:00

I has been very long didn't write for posting. It is not because of laziness neither because of shortage of topics and discussions.

However, it's just because of exhaustion that has been crawling over me in facing the real world.

Yes, the REAL WORLD..

If you ask me how it's look like, I don't know either it is blue or red (maybe I am a colour blind) or even either it is tall or short.

What I am sure, it is CRUEL!!

I hear that before, people telling me that, "Sin Hui, life is hard", "Life is unmerciful", and I thought I understand that very much.

Actually, facing it yourself gives you a total difference than what always in your mind.

Well, a few incidents for me to say why it's that, but I will just pick 1 of those with the least personal problems.

Recently, life was rather hectic because most of the days I am out on the road, under the Sun, cycling like a clown around the Island.

After so much effort, thinking that it will bear fruits, it turned out to be different.

People don't really care whatever effort, how much you put in, either you burn the midnight oil or not, the sweats you pour, or even the pain.

They hold on their belief, their perception, and their decision -YES OR NO...

Mostly it was a NO...some gave you a pleasant YES..(thank you)

You are really in the battle field.

No armies from your enemy troop doesn't symbolises your definite winning because at the end of the day you may be knock out by some cannons...

No weapons and bullets from you doesn't symbolises defeat because your enemy may forget his as well...

It's all just about the strong will and unwillingness in you to bow upon fate...

Indeed, that was how I started from nothing till what I am today...(long story to say when think about that)

However, the conclusion is, never judge too early, saying in easier manner, DON'T THINK TOO POSITIVELY or even NEGATIVELY..Just be brave

Just let the ball rolls and see how it goes...

Meanwhile, I mustn't deny that I also achieve a few life satisfaction that no words can describe them.

The happiness of students (even kissing your hand), the laughter of parents thanking you for the child gradual changes, the satisfaction of everyone and myself...

After seeing so much, I understand myself better.

What I always think about myself seems wrong..

I am not searching for a luxurious life, I just want a satisfying life...

I don't know how much will this change my FUTURE...

What I am sure now, it affects my PRESENT..

-I hope my seminar will be going fine, May the Force be with me-

What a Day!!

2009-02-09T11:02:00.004+08:00

This year, my Thaipusam celebration was slightly different.

It's rather more tiring and exhausting, more blister, and more sweat droppings.

However, in the difficulties and hurdles I gone through, I understand the little meaning of life.

On Friday, I receive a sudden message from my old school teacher seeking for help to carry up loads of ice up to the Waterfall Temple.

I was partly holding back because I was extremely tired- after the motorbike test, went to school, and all the way to the Immigration Office.

But I believe my 'sir' wouldn't have call me if and only if he doesn't really need my help.

So, took a bus at 4pm and reach there at 5.30pm after a long walk from Adventist under the hot Sun with a friend that didn't even grunt throughout the whole way.

Counting the steps at the Waterfall Temple, loads of ice were carried up.

Many things happened that time

As it's a voluntary work, therefore nobody was actually sighing or even complaining.
Everyone was working under a very pleasant and willing manner. Air of laughter were carried along with the heavy ice towards the top of the temple.

I was made to understand that the ice was meant to quench thousands of thirst during the Thaipusam celebration on Sunday.

As the sky turning darker, we decided to make a move. However, we realise our bags were kept by my 'sir' and he is up on the temple while we were already at the basement.

So, I make a call and without thinking, my 'sir' went all the way down just to pass us the bags. To those who went there should know how tiring climbing the stairs, but my 'sir' did it ( climbing down and went up again) in his not very young age. I was very guilty but the best I can say is 'Thank you'.

When we were about to leave, suddenly the 2 seniors came with their motorcycle to fetch me and my friend back to Adventist. Realising that there's is no extra helmet, they insist us for the ride. For safety reason, I just ask them to put me and my friend near the end of the road- save us about 500m.

This may be one the most tiring day, however it is a day of friendship, a day of respect, and even a day of mankind.

The significance of Thaipusam seems to be much more meaningful than just loud music, chariots, and anything we always relate to.

It was a feeling I l have lost for the past 5 years after leaving my secondary school.

The natural feeling of friendship, respect and loving were no longer in the new environment of my high school.

I miss those days...

The Lompat Kapal and Lompat Roket Game

2009-02-07T01:06:00.005+08:00

When Malaysians were busy celebrating their remaining Chinese New Year, seems that Barisan Nasional got a big Ang Pau in Perak after their "prideful" and "gentlemen" way to form the new state government.

I don't know how the Perak people accept their new government, but I feel that the issue of "lompat kapal" or we can also have "lompat roket" by defecting to other parties has become a trend and favourites in the Malaysian politics.

I don't care whoever going to be the next Menteri Besar. Whoever started the issue of crossing-over or even who was wrong and should there be a by-election or not.

I am just thinking, is this the right principle in politics?

Seriously, I as the normal citizen felt embarrassed, disgusted and protesting against such an undemocratic manner to gain the ruling power.

The reason is simple. When we vote a candidate, other than voting for the sake of admiring his personality and leadership, we also share the aspiration and agenda of his respective political party.

Therefore, those candidates that cross-over imply their sense of ungratefulness and they betray and lie the rakyat.

When he chose to serve the people for the people; it's public interest.
When he chose to serve the people for himself; it's personal interest.

Therefore, I don't see the point about how much will it affect their service to the people through crossing over.

However, I can see that those people will be the No 1's pets where they will be promise with power, positions, name and wealth.

Let us just wait and see. The "Mudah Lupa" Politicians will get more than a Camry while the "Mudah Lompat" Politicians will get more than what he was before. (Biar mati "Adil", Asal naik kapal besar).

As the humble citizen, I would like to say this:

"Now you know how it feels when you play the "lompat-lompat game".

"We won't pity you when your government "masuk guang kerana lompat tak tinggi"- because you play that game too".

Let us reflect again the rationality of this favourite trend in Malaysia for Malaysians?

Do we still want to see them again in the next season?

2009-02-03T17:27:00.004+08:00

Well, I'm glad that the festive season is over after the mass celebration last night.

The joy and happiness was clearly reflected by the unending fireworks or even firecrackers.

The Penangnites should really thank the fellow policemen for closing one eye (maybe both) for allowing the celebration of joy to take place without any arrest for playing firecrackers.

However, I believe if really actions to be taken, nearly half of the citizens of Penang will surely be celebrating the rest of their Chinese New Year in the jail!

Well, let me recap my last 8 days of reunion and peace.

Day 0 (29th of Chinese Lunar Calendar) :
Mostly everyone in the house gather at my paternal grandparent's grave to offer respect as well as cleaning their permanent home. Aren't they celebrating Chinese New Year also?

Personally, I am glad my Dad actually practise that as it shows our appreciation and gratefulness to our ancestors. Without them, we won't be even celebrating all this, isn't it?

30th of Chinese Lunar Calendar:
I came back from my student's house for tuition. Kind of guilty when realised that the table for Reunion Dinner was almost completely set up. The Reunion Dinner begins.

At 10.30pm, my father and I ready for prayers in the 7 temples in Penang.Personally, I am proud for being included as I represent the House to pray for a better and happier life in the coming new year =).

The unfortunates forming a long line along the entrance to Kuan Im Teng to get their "ang pau"

Me and Him!

1st day of the Chinese Lunar Calendar:
Get up quite late but felt relieved when I am at least not the latest. Bathed and get ready to wish family members. Later, I followed my fellow brothers to the Uncle Aunty's house. The weather was seriously killing and I started to feel sleepy.

My tiring day repeats for 2nd day of Chinese New Year.

3rd day of Chinese Lunar Calendar:
It was an awaiting day as I am going to "pai nin" (visit during CNY) to my maternal grandparents. They were very happy to see us as well as angry because we were slightly late.

Gather

Ang pau was dropping like heavy rains by the "ah suk" and "ah puah". After that, we have the second version of Reunion Dinner. It was a memorable night when everyone sits together, talk and some even sing. Fireworks and firecrackers were once again not excluded from the party.

Sit and Listen

Listening to my father singing.

4th day of Chinese New Year:
Have some yee sang since we won't be here for my grandparents for "yan yat" (Humans Day).

Came back Penang. Shock to see a group of gamblers making my house like the Casino de Genting. I didn't join since I hate gambling. I watched.

Do some visits to friends' house. Number of ang pau seems to increase but don't really care as the thoughts of giving was rather more important.

5th and 6th day of Chinese New Year:
Things start to settle down. But not the gamblers that still regularly coming to my house.

7th day of Chinese New Year:
Time is getting so slow. So, I plan to resume my tuition class earlier than scheduled.

In evening, went for HQ Potluck Party. It's basically a "Makan Fair" as it doesn't signify anything to the spirit of Chinese New Year. Though, still have a good time.

8th day of Chinese New Year:
The closing ceremony of Chinese New Year. The whole house getting ready to provide offerings to the "God of Heaven".

You may called that superstitious, a myth, or anything you want, but my view is just very simple. It shows our thankful and grateful mind because the Hokkiens were saved from the Japanese attack on that day and we just want to remember that auspicious day.

Well, that is how my Chinese New Year goes, Chap Goh May basically meaningless to me, so I called an end to Chinese New Year.

Hopefully, the coming New Year I can have a more memorable one. As the spirit of Chinese New Year- Reunion and Peace...

2009-02-01T18:32:00.005+08:00

Chinese New Year basically comes to an end for me after tomorrow's prayers to the God Of Heaven.

Thinking about the past 7 days, I realise it's one of the best Chinese New Year.

There are reasons for me to say that.

Firstly, there is an increase of number in my family. So, there is more fun and gaiety basically. Indeed that's the true spirit of Chinese New Year- Reunion and Peace.

Secondly, I do more visits despite the fact that my father's side had been a smaller scale. Perhaps because I include more friends in my "Directory List" this year.

Thirdly, the gathering in my grandparent's house was rather memorable and exciting.

However, there were a few dislikes for this year New Year.

I didn't catch many Lion or Dragon dance performances compared to recent years.

Quality of food for Chinese New Year was slightly deteriorated. My favourite cookies and crackers was not served because the supplier bankrupted recently. In addition, "Yee sang" this year taste like dried fish and salted vegetable.

All this are the result from global recession. So, I couldn't do much actually.

Basically, this is all happen for this year Oxen Chinese New Year.

It will be summarised after the 8th day that's in honour to the God of Heaven.

Since today is Human's Birthday. I hope for peace, security, serenity and tranquil in anywhere and everywhere in the name of humanity.

Happy Birthday!!

Yam Kim Fai and Pak Suet Sin

2009-01-30T00:32:00.007+08:00

Since small, I have never been expose to stuffs like computer games, hand phone, mp3, gameboy or even Power Rangers as well as Ultraman.

All this terminology sounds very alien and not friendly to me.

So, how's it during my childhood days?

Well, we keep that for next time.

But today I publish this post in memory of two great idols that none of any of my friends will share with.

I love only some of their songs but I miss the most are their spirit.

And the one I am paying tribute to are Yam Kim Fai and Pak Suet Sin.

Left: Pak Suet Sin and Right: Yam Kim Fai

You know who are they?

As I am continuing writing, my heart can really feels it.

The feeling is like asking me to write everything about this two opera stars and let the whole world to know how great they are.

A brief history of them.

Yam Kim Fai and Pak Suet Sin are both best friends and best working partner on the stage opera.

One of my favourite shots will definitely be their "Dai Lui Fah" (The Princess of Chang Ping)

Yam Kim Fai dismissed in the year of 1989.

Today, I wonder whoever in Hong Kong who don't know Yam Kim Fai and Pak Suet Sin

They uphold and preserve the art of civilisation that existed since few centuries ago until today.

Yam Kim Fai and Pak Suet Sin was a life friends that I am always envy of because I will never get one today.

They were sincere and tendentiously intend to widespread our Chinese Opera that is extinguishing nowadays.

They were examples to all Opera Stars and their lost can still be felt even after nearly 20 years.

Today, no matter how much I know about the modern world, there will be always this space to spend for opera.

Indeed, it is one of my interest and they inspired me a lot.

I really hope that opera will still be well-received and no regrets for life when I can listen to the best music of opera during my last breath, though I am still young.

Oh God..I really can't ever tell you about the beauty and significance of the Cantonese Opera in me.

Well, it's all a tribute and honour to Yam Bak Sisters.

I wouldnt have love cantonese language that belongs to my maternal grandparents as much as I would without both of you.

Bahasa Malaysia, National Language

2009-01-29T18:15:00.006+08:00

Recently, I watched a television program that disucss on how to difnify our national language, Bahasa Melayu and I was inspired.

However, I didn't want to talk much initially since the discussion on matters regarding our Bahasa Kebangsaan was made so taboo by our first class mentality government.

However, after realising that there should be a holistic mind and to be awake from our mistakes, I call for this consideration.

First of all, what is Bahasa Malaysia?

National Language. Yes! It's the national language.

More example, they are similarly as how we call the National Museum, National Mosque, National Park and etc.

They represent our Malaysians' standard of civilisation, sociocultural background, and way of lifestyle.

In other words, they represent our nation.

However, is it logic to agree that we should disallow idea to build a Museum or a Mosque that may stand better than our "Nationals" one?

Maybe, simply because they feel that it will disgrace or dismiss our National Museum or National
Mosque.

Yes, everyone of us realise there is still some "Jaguh Kampungs" that have this mentality.

When I say that, it means the Government even the Opposition and also the "pro-mother tongue".

They point out that it will destroy our National Language forever from this Land. It will be a shame. It shows disrespect. We will forget our identity and di da di da this people can ever think just to influence the rakyat.

They disallow and decelerate progress when we have to adapt relevant changes.

That changes include picking up new languages other than the National Language.

All this protesters that attack blindly simply NOT because they love the language, not because they are fighters for the people but because they are POLITICIANS.

They manipulate facts, they misinterpret the truth, they blindfold the people in the "kampungs" because they want to seek VOTES.

They are prejudice. They are hypocrite. They are narrow-minded. They are catching for the limelight. They are achieving for cheap publicity.

Because the truth is that we can still develop, we are still proud of our very own National Language even if we master other languages because National Language will always be our National Language and we, Malaysians understand that very well.

However, at the same time we realise the needs of inquiring other languages and I mean any languages because I am not prejudice to Bahasa Malaysia and hoo-haa for only English, in case if anyone of you that think it that way.

Think!! How on Earth in this modernized world to survive with only two languages including our mother tongue especially the main ethnics in Malaysia such as the Chinese and the Indians?

Those Jaguh Kampungs are thinking of themselves and never think for the future of we fellow Malaysians by betting and sacrificing our future and let us struggle in this competitive and demanding world when we are not equipped by mastering other languages.

In literary, they are as if throwing the rakyat into a war by not providing weapons for their self-interest. SELFISH AYAM KAMPUNG!!

I would really intend to dare those "pak minister" to communicate in National Language when they speak in global conference if they are inclined so much in their propaganda.

They are going to be the laughing stock because there will be only ONE MAN that understands him. And the little one is HIMSELF.

Adding to that, if its true that foreign language will vanish our identity, look at our neighbour country, Singapore.

Their motto is Majulah Singapura (Bahasa Malaysia) when they place the status of English as so important but they never, NEVER replace English language as their National Language.

That's people with brains. They are preserving what they should. They inherit their ancestor language but at the same time they didn't neglect the global language, economy language, international language.

Actually we realise all that, including the importance of Science and Math in English, but it's our self-ignorance. It's because we are easily influence by the propaganda of the Ayam Kampung.

Therefore, the solution is actually there.

Which is to IGNORE and FORGET about the AYAM KAMPUNGS.

As I said earlier, so long Malaysian is a free and independent country, we Malaysians will use our blood and tears to fight for our National Language.

But let us also resemble our strength by adding value on ourself; one of it to have a diverse ways to converse.

Use our intelligence, wisdom, self consciousness and broad mindedness to judge the rights and wrongs.

Let us not be the part of the political games and let us be united to strive towards the betterment for the nation.

Let us do our little bit we can ever contribute- a matured citizen.

Let us stand out and understand our key role.

Let us divert our friends from old to young from the dark to bright, from the lies to the truth.

Let us not be be thinking on the stand of races, political differences, and whatever good names of ideology.

Instead, let us stand in the name of development and progression for the sake of future generations, our children.

As our National Motto sounds, "Bersekutu Bertambah Mutu" (Unity is Strength)

My first posting

2009-01-27T16:24:00.001+08:00

Welcome!!

This is my first posting and thus tasting the life as a blogger for the first time.

I didn't know why should I have one, but personally I feel it's because I COPY .

Yes! COPY! Since I'd seen so many of my friends have one, I felt left out if I don't own one as well.

However, nobody denies the fact that COPYING actually makes each and everyone of us to be what we are today.

When we are born, we imitate the way people talk, and from there we develop our communication skills.

When we see how people dress, we emulate their way and fashion and slowly it becomes our style.

When we mix with politicians, sooner or later we cultivate their way of talking, walking, as well as their habits in making promises.

Therefore, COPYING does not lowers down our esteem, if and only if we practice the RIGHT WAY to COPY.

Indeed, COPY is part of evolution in mankind civilisation...

However, this blog is merely for me to write and air my views and opinions as a normal citizen, as one of the spectator in the "life show" featuring anything that are deserving and worth for us to talk about.

Hopefully, this blog can please and satisfy my desire in sharing my opinions. However, if my writings can satisfy you as well, I am much happier to write.

Please voice your critics and critiques for anything publish here.