Looking through the Eyes: the Ophthamology

It is an unusual day today.

Sleeping soundly since dinner till now (9.30pm), sipping my favourite Jing Si Tea, playing my favourite playlist at the background as I type the story of a journey which has lasted for 4 weeks. 

When I have time for tea 

 There are many stories and experiences that I would love to put them down into words, but with my usual routine, I wonder when will be the next update in my blog.

 “Congratulations, you are the leader”….

 That was what written on the small sheet of paper which I have just taken by drawing lots for the selection of the next group leader for Ophthalmology posting.

I smiled quietly and told Cindy  before walking away that “I have a reason to be the leader”.

Of course I do.

Vincent said everything I do, I would have planned far ahead to benefit myself in whatever situation. I agree.

I dislike Ophthalmology and I cursed it really badly when I am in Semester 6.

I have no idea what the lecturer is talking and I have so much of phobia during the exam.

 I remembered how I mugged the answers for the MCQs from the past years just to cheat myself through during the Assessment exam.

I dislike that feeling of losing control and trying too hard but not getting back proportionally in return.

Hence, I have made a vow- The vow that I shall never be fearful to this subject anymore.

I read Khurana during Ortho posting and apply my knowledge by having discussion with Bernard and Jason who at that time were in Ophtha.

 I enjoyed the responsibility of Ophtha posting leader so that I know what is going on and make myself more aware of it.

 I seek help from Han Jie to teach me Anterior segment examination days before the posting start.

 I pushed myself to the maximum even on the first day class with Dr Rajiv until I almost annoyed him due to the hyperactivity.

I have never put so much of effort into one discipline like Ophthalmology after Internal Medicine.

A good breakfast before going for Short case exam. 

 Today, when I finished the posting and saw Dr Rajiv happy and proud expression, it was so rewarding and I felt so appreciated for the effort I put in.

I should say thank you now to the hatred and anger I have on Ophtha because it allow me to put in efforts to transform this negative feelings into passion and love for the subject.

 Results are not even out, but yet I have felt great sense of satisfaction, because it is already MY best, if I cannot reach THE best.

Delightful time after Portfolio Defence and signify the end of posting

Signing out, Ophthamology.

ps: wishing my peers a happy study break and let us win this war together called P2S2.

May all be well and happy.

Where did the water came from?

When I was asked, "Where did the drinking water came from? Is there a creator behind this creation?"

I was thinking, it is not possible to answer something I have not seen with my eyes, why not move forward instead and try to search for the answer,

Then, I will ask:

When I drink the water into my body and it becomes blood, who created the blood?"

"When the blood filtered by my kidney and become the urine, who created the urine?"

"When I excrete the urine and flowed down to the river, who created the river water?"

"When the river water evaporated and became the cloud, who created the cloud?"

"When the cloud pouring down the rain, who created the rain?"

"When the rain got purified and became the drinking water, who created the drinking water?"

 

If really something was created and exist, "

" Where are the drinking water when it is the blood?

Where is the blood when it is the urine?

Where is the urine when it is the river?

Where is the river when it is the cloud?

Where is the cloud when it is the rain?

Where is the rain when it is the drinking water?"

 

The beginning of one is the cessation of another. The cessation of one will be the beginning of another.

 

The interchange of element from one to another is the law of nature.

Some feels that this force of nature is controlled by someone or something that people name it as the 'creator', ‘supreme power’ and not less that name it as 'God'.

I understand this as the cause and effect.

 

But, how will this understanding of ‘where did this come from’ will made me a better person?

Can this understanding made us understand how to live well and better?

Probably it will probably it just not.

 

For me, I want to treasure more to these questions?

How can the water hydrate my body?

How my blood able to transport the oxygen effectively?

How my urine can excrete all the toxic products? How to made the river to be not polluted?

How the clouds can bring rain to places of draught?

How this rain can provide me a clean water to drink?

 

We ask so much about existence and life after existence.

 

Acknowledging it is important because it allows to understand our correlation with other subjects in this world.

But for me, what is more important is how to live harmoniously and inter-relate with all the subjects existing to bring our life more loving and compassionate.

 

May all be well and happy.