Life for the past few days have been so uncertain.
Maybe it’s just illusion of mind or even just due to the paranoid state of mind facing with matters around me.
I have never fully believe that God and religion is the place for eternal peace. It’s just a self-comfort, it’s just a self-satisfaction. In other words, we explained the unseen with the unseen so it can be visible and acceptable in our mind.
We take things for granted and push everything to fate. We are relying and depending to our self-imagination. If we would belief God is great, hence He is great. When we pray for something to be fulfilled, it turns out to be, we thank Him. Who makes Him great? Our mind.
Maybe it’s really so silly and unacceptable. How can we believe in such unseen force that cannot be proven by equations or whatever so called Laws and Rules in scientific studies?
Yet, he is the most powerful force and most accepted theories in this universe.
Maybe that is the only way to say that God is that simple, His oneness is so easily to be understood and take no genius to believe Him.
We don’t need to simplify him in any ways, or either we need to acquire knowledge to learn him.
He is not a subject like Chemistry or Physics. He is not an object, to be labelled with adjectives.
He is a belief. He is what we believe. Are we going to believe what others believe just because that is how people educate us about God?
He have followed me and it goes the same to me also since the day I know Him.
I have laughed about Him. I have challenged Him. I have teased Him.
It would be hypocritical if I would deny that.
But yet, I know who is He.
In my life, my biggest bet is the way how i want to perceive the greatest power as- God.
And my losing in this bet surely going to send me to the burning of fire in Hell.
I am not afraid not because me undermined Him.
It's the Love of God, and not the Fear of God to believe Him.
I shall be what I am as long I know my conscience and principles.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Fortis Atque Fidelis
On yesterday 21.10.2009, the Grand Old Lady has entered into its another golden year, the 193th anniversary.
Being the oldest Alma mater in the Southeast Asia, definitely it will be all pride and fame for all Frees to celebrate this historical and grand occasion.
In fact, only when I am writing this, I just realise I am one of the very many Old Frees all around the world.
Down the memory lane, many sweet and bitter experiences I have gone through in this place called Penang Free School.
Not forgetting those days when I usually sleep in the school for holidays, running around with the Junior Coms or even counting the stars together in the middle of the night on the cricket pitch.
This is also the place where I have cause so much dispute with the school authorities. Maybe I am still young that time (and I am not really that old now as well), but yet I believe I am still holding on the same stand with what I did till today.
However, it's not the main concern about how much I have gone through but how well I have gone through.
Yet, this question will only remain as a question as the road to success is still far away.
However, what is distance when time will always linearly move us forward if we dare to strive further and lift up our self up in the shine of success.
With this, I hope the Grand Old Lady can always remain relevant and continue to produce leaders (Tunku Abdul Rahman, Jimmy Choo, Tun Lim Chong Eu, P. Ramlee as the very few names which are also the Old Frees)for the nation or even the world.
The motto "Fortie Atque Fidelis" will remain flowing as Free School is only for the brave and true.
Being the oldest Alma mater in the Southeast Asia, definitely it will be all pride and fame for all Frees to celebrate this historical and grand occasion.
In fact, only when I am writing this, I just realise I am one of the very many Old Frees all around the world.
Down the memory lane, many sweet and bitter experiences I have gone through in this place called Penang Free School.
Not forgetting those days when I usually sleep in the school for holidays, running around with the Junior Coms or even counting the stars together in the middle of the night on the cricket pitch.
This is also the place where I have cause so much dispute with the school authorities. Maybe I am still young that time (and I am not really that old now as well), but yet I believe I am still holding on the same stand with what I did till today.
However, it's not the main concern about how much I have gone through but how well I have gone through.
Yet, this question will only remain as a question as the road to success is still far away.
However, what is distance when time will always linearly move us forward if we dare to strive further and lift up our self up in the shine of success.
With this, I hope the Grand Old Lady can always remain relevant and continue to produce leaders (Tunku Abdul Rahman, Jimmy Choo, Tun Lim Chong Eu, P. Ramlee as the very few names which are also the Old Frees)for the nation or even the world.
The motto "Fortie Atque Fidelis" will remain flowing as Free School is only for the brave and true.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
-sigh of relief-
After hours of discussion with Bobby to complete his decision making speech, finally I get myself some free time to lay back and write something here.
Today, I expected to be something boring. Perhaps because I will be going for the Ko-PLN visit. But, in the end it was ok and I managed to find some joy and fun in it.
Went to the National Heart Institute (Institut Jantung Negara). Nothing make me like about that place except..
Can you believe this is how a hospital look like..elegant and artistic
I get to see the room Tun Mahathir admitted during his bypass surgery there
Went to the National Art Gallery before to the National Blood Bank
First time to donate blood
Many benefits, but the most importantly,
Get a Milo, bread, kuih and a pear after the donation =P..
Once I reached back, I saw Wai Hong waiting me. It means that I wont have the time to sleep since I promise to help him in his Demonstrative Speech text.
It was worth (and rare) when he wanted to treat me for dinner. More than happy, we went to the Bandar Lama Petaling Jaya have Hokkien Char and Loh Mee.
Then, to Giant, get some durians (complement to Chien Chong in successfully bargaining until we manage to get the durian so cheap)
Then to Tesco to buy the broom, mope and cleanser.
Reach back here, quickly heat up the "da pao" food for other neighbours we have invited.
Very nice to see everyone gather around. Have been a long time 2/210 experience this loud and welcoming voices.
Open the laptop, discuss with Five (yeah..new names to be installed into the blog) discussing about his Demonstrative Speech idea..hopefully turns out well
Then, finally when I want to go and sleep, Bobby ask me to help him.
And now, here is where I am...
What I am trying to say here is:
1. I thought life is going to be miserable for me today. But then it turns up to be exactly different from my expectation.
2. Life is just so uncertained and undetermined.
3. But by the time you realise it, your day is almost ending.
4. Though we may not have enough, but it's too late to realise that.
5. Thus, enjoy every moment even if it's good or bad.
6. It might sounds "action speak louder than words", but indeed with every gratefullness and appreciation to your day everyday, its not hard.
=.=sleepy
After hours of discussion with Bobby to complete his decision making speech, finally I get myself some free time to lay back and write something here.
Today, I expected to be something boring. Perhaps because I will be going for the Ko-PLN visit. But, in the end it was ok and I managed to find some joy and fun in it.
Went to the National Heart Institute (Institut Jantung Negara). Nothing make me like about that place except..
Can you believe this is how a hospital look like..elegant and artistic
I get to see the room Tun Mahathir admitted during his bypass surgery there
Went to the National Art Gallery before to the National Blood Bank
First time to donate blood
Many benefits, but the most importantly,
Get a Milo, bread, kuih and a pear after the donation =P..
Once I reached back, I saw Wai Hong waiting me. It means that I wont have the time to sleep since I promise to help him in his Demonstrative Speech text.
It was worth (and rare) when he wanted to treat me for dinner. More than happy, we went to the Bandar Lama Petaling Jaya have Hokkien Char and Loh Mee.
Then, to Giant, get some durians (complement to Chien Chong in successfully bargaining until we manage to get the durian so cheap)
Then to Tesco to buy the broom, mope and cleanser.
Reach back here, quickly heat up the "da pao" food for other neighbours we have invited.
Very nice to see everyone gather around. Have been a long time 2/210 experience this loud and welcoming voices.
Open the laptop, discuss with Five (yeah..new names to be installed into the blog) discussing about his Demonstrative Speech idea..hopefully turns out well
Then, finally when I want to go and sleep, Bobby ask me to help him.
And now, here is where I am...
What I am trying to say here is:
1. I thought life is going to be miserable for me today. But then it turns up to be exactly different from my expectation.
2. Life is just so uncertained and undetermined.
3. But by the time you realise it, your day is almost ending.
4. Though we may not have enough, but it's too late to realise that.
5. Thus, enjoy every moment even if it's good or bad.
6. It might sounds "action speak louder than words", but indeed with every gratefullness and appreciation to your day everyday, its not hard.
=.=sleepy
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Serungkai Abjad Berenda Kata
Di hari kini biarlah gembira,
Apa di esok Tuhan yang tentu;
Suka gembira sesama kita,
Duka merana sendiri tahu.
Turun dan naik lumrah manusia,
Asalkan kita penuh harapan;
Tinggi dan rendah hadapi sama,
Walaupun kita keseorangan.
Semalam kini kian berubah,
Ada yang hilnag banyak yang tiada;
Mungkinkah hati sudahpun goyah,
Sifat dan rupa kian berbeza.
Kaya dan miskin tiada diukur,
Asalkan setia tiada berganjak;
Kawan yang ada diafaz syukur,
Moga bersambung ibarat ombak.
Terus berjalan terus melangkah,
Selagi jalan di depan mata;
Terus bersimpul enggan berpangkah,
Selagi belum sampai masanya.
Walau di kini teringat semalam,
Terungkai rapat hati ke mata;
Hanya kulafaz buat yang faham,
Moga hariku masih bermakna.
Apa di esok Tuhan yang tentu;
Suka gembira sesama kita,
Duka merana sendiri tahu.
Turun dan naik lumrah manusia,
Asalkan kita penuh harapan;
Tinggi dan rendah hadapi sama,
Walaupun kita keseorangan.
Semalam kini kian berubah,
Ada yang hilnag banyak yang tiada;
Mungkinkah hati sudahpun goyah,
Sifat dan rupa kian berbeza.
Kaya dan miskin tiada diukur,
Asalkan setia tiada berganjak;
Kawan yang ada diafaz syukur,
Moga bersambung ibarat ombak.
Terus berjalan terus melangkah,
Selagi jalan di depan mata;
Terus bersimpul enggan berpangkah,
Selagi belum sampai masanya.
Walau di kini teringat semalam,
Terungkai rapat hati ke mata;
Hanya kulafaz buat yang faham,
Moga hariku masih bermakna.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Cause and Effect Essay
While I am collecting information about what might be out for tomorrow cause and effect essay writing test, I thought maybe I should practice one here and let you to be the marker.
How the cause from myself affect my friendship relationship.
It's going to be nearly 5 months me landed on this place known as INTEC. By now, maybe I can proudly claimed that I am getting use with the environment here. But then, at the very beginning, perhaps till now, I still feel not use to the friends I have here.
At first, I wonder, why can't I have those friends that are the same as I do in Free School last time. Writing this sentence reminds me of many of the oldies that we cherish the good moments together. Anyway, let me write more about the present..
At here, some people just get their nerve on me as they think my sarcasm is too concentrated..haha this is not a new thing to me ever since I'm in High School. When I talk rudely (the usual style), people say I bully them...haih..Sarawakians haha there are even not few that think I am so stubborn and never give in..." grumpy" they or maybe He, call it...
So, what happen is this.. Sin Hui is getting so "sweet" nowadays. But then the scars of my behaviour can still be seen here and there.. But what to do, everyone here is so smart. If I offended anyone, I might not only lose a friend but maybe my life as well..they kill you intellectually =.=". Anyway, I am happy with what is happening now, grateful and improving them. I am not sure how far this road of life we will be walking, but surely going to be a chapter of life for me to think of and smile upon in my older days in future.
So, what I am trying to conclude here is: what i am before this have become a cause to the effect of what I am now. And what I am now is going to be the effect to how friendship will be around me. Indirectly, this changes of relationship that approach me will change myself to fit me into the current situation.
This is how the cause and effect of myself towards friendship. The past affect the present to let the present to affect the future. It's just the wheel of life anyway.
Well, I am sure this is a boring piece, But haih I wanted to try to write something about myself, as it's encouraged by Ming Khai. But, I still stick to same principle, when you write something about yourself, "Who actually gonna care"...I think I better write about politics in future..
Logged out.
How the cause from myself affect my friendship relationship.
It's going to be nearly 5 months me landed on this place known as INTEC. By now, maybe I can proudly claimed that I am getting use with the environment here. But then, at the very beginning, perhaps till now, I still feel not use to the friends I have here.
At first, I wonder, why can't I have those friends that are the same as I do in Free School last time. Writing this sentence reminds me of many of the oldies that we cherish the good moments together. Anyway, let me write more about the present..
At here, some people just get their nerve on me as they think my sarcasm is too concentrated..haha this is not a new thing to me ever since I'm in High School. When I talk rudely (the usual style), people say I bully them...haih..Sarawakians haha there are even not few that think I am so stubborn and never give in..." grumpy" they or maybe He, call it...
So, what happen is this.. Sin Hui is getting so "sweet" nowadays. But then the scars of my behaviour can still be seen here and there.. But what to do, everyone here is so smart. If I offended anyone, I might not only lose a friend but maybe my life as well..they kill you intellectually =.=". Anyway, I am happy with what is happening now, grateful and improving them. I am not sure how far this road of life we will be walking, but surely going to be a chapter of life for me to think of and smile upon in my older days in future.
So, what I am trying to conclude here is: what i am before this have become a cause to the effect of what I am now. And what I am now is going to be the effect to how friendship will be around me. Indirectly, this changes of relationship that approach me will change myself to fit me into the current situation.
This is how the cause and effect of myself towards friendship. The past affect the present to let the present to affect the future. It's just the wheel of life anyway.
Well, I am sure this is a boring piece, But haih I wanted to try to write something about myself, as it's encouraged by Ming Khai. But, I still stick to same principle, when you write something about yourself, "Who actually gonna care"...I think I better write about politics in future..
Logged out.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Salam Lebaran, Singkapan Kenangan
Tomorrow I am going to sit for English test, but seems I am still bravely sitting in front here putting up a new post.
Well, that's because a few unforgettable thoughts and happenings that happened throughout this Raya have run through my mind.
A few to highlight here:
1. I get to wish more Malay friends for this year Raya (mostly my new friends from INTEC)
2. How cool we were when we "ON" the Raya songs and enjoyed them together in class before the semester break begun.
3. Went to Radin's house (ooo new name in the blog, haha) was also a new experience. After knowing him nearly 4 years more, this is the first time I actually celebrate Raya in his house since I couldn't make it last year.
4. Enjoying kuih raya brought by my Malay friends just catch another glimpse of Malaysian backdrop of the colours of unity. Thanks for that delicious kuih...
5. Surprisingly, Miss Nadiah (if you don't know, my Chemistry lecturer) brought us also some nice baked cereals (sort of Corn Flakes) with mouth watering cake. Thanks for remembering us =)
6. Manage to text many losing contact friends, teachers and anyone I met throught my years of networking. Good to see the bonding of friends to be formed again.
I don't know what's more coming up to mark this celebration for the month of Syawal.
What I know, this very simple way of us celebrating Raya together with close friends is more enough than those mega open house.
At least, we found our common difference and we celebrate it with respect and cohesiveness.
I don't know how is Raya actually mean to others especially the non-Muslim, but that is how I sketch it in my mind.
Not too late for the Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin wishes.
Well, that's because a few unforgettable thoughts and happenings that happened throughout this Raya have run through my mind.
A few to highlight here:
1. I get to wish more Malay friends for this year Raya (mostly my new friends from INTEC)
2. How cool we were when we "ON" the Raya songs and enjoyed them together in class before the semester break begun.
3. Went to Radin's house (ooo new name in the blog, haha) was also a new experience. After knowing him nearly 4 years more, this is the first time I actually celebrate Raya in his house since I couldn't make it last year.
4. Enjoying kuih raya brought by my Malay friends just catch another glimpse of Malaysian backdrop of the colours of unity. Thanks for that delicious kuih...
5. Surprisingly, Miss Nadiah (if you don't know, my Chemistry lecturer) brought us also some nice baked cereals (sort of Corn Flakes) with mouth watering cake. Thanks for remembering us =)
6. Manage to text many losing contact friends, teachers and anyone I met throught my years of networking. Good to see the bonding of friends to be formed again.
I don't know what's more coming up to mark this celebration for the month of Syawal.
What I know, this very simple way of us celebrating Raya together with close friends is more enough than those mega open house.
At least, we found our common difference and we celebrate it with respect and cohesiveness.
I don't know how is Raya actually mean to others especially the non-Muslim, but that is how I sketch it in my mind.
Not too late for the Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin wishes.
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