I has been very long didn't write for posting. It is not because of laziness neither because of shortage of topics and discussions.
However, it's just because of exhaustion that has been crawling over me in facing the real world.
Yes, the REAL WORLD..
If you ask me how it's look like, I don't know either it is blue or red (maybe I am a colour blind) or even either it is tall or short.
What I am sure, it is CRUEL!!
I hear that before, people telling me that, "Sin Hui, life is hard", "Life is unmerciful", and I thought I understand that very much.
Actually, facing it yourself gives you a total difference than what always in your mind.
Well, a few incidents for me to say why it's that, but I will just pick 1 of those with the least personal problems.
Recently, life was rather hectic because most of the days I am out on the road, under the Sun, cycling like a clown around the Island.
After so much effort, thinking that it will bear fruits, it turned out to be different.
People don't really care whatever effort, how much you put in, either you burn the midnight oil or not, the sweats you pour, or even the pain.
They hold on their belief, their perception, and their decision -YES OR NO...
Mostly it was a NO...some gave you a pleasant YES..(thank you)
You are really in the battle field.
No armies from your enemy troop doesn't symbolises your definite winning because at the end of the day you may be knock out by some cannons...
No weapons and bullets from you doesn't symbolises defeat because your enemy may forget his as well...
It's all just about the strong will and unwillingness in you to bow upon fate...
Indeed, that was how I started from nothing till what I am today...(long story to say when think about that)
However, the conclusion is, never judge too early, saying in easier manner, DON'T THINK TOO POSITIVELY or even NEGATIVELY..Just be brave
Just let the ball rolls and see how it goes...
Meanwhile, I mustn't deny that I also achieve a few life satisfaction that no words can describe them.
The happiness of students (even kissing your hand), the laughter of parents thanking you for the child gradual changes, the satisfaction of everyone and myself...
After seeing so much, I understand myself better.
What I always think about myself seems wrong..
I am not searching for a luxurious life, I just want a satisfying life...
I don't know how much will this change my FUTURE...
What I am sure now, it affects my PRESENT..
-I hope my seminar will be going fine, May the Force be with me-
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
What a Day!!
This year, my Thaipusam celebration was slightly different.
It's rather more tiring and exhausting, more blister, and more sweat droppings.
However, in the difficulties and hurdles I gone through, I understand the little meaning of life.
On Friday, I receive a sudden message from my old school teacher seeking for help to carry up loads of ice up to the Waterfall Temple.
I was partly holding back because I was extremely tired- after the motorbike test, went to school, and all the way to the Immigration Office.
But I believe my 'sir' wouldn't have call me if and only if he doesn't really need my help.
So, took a bus at 4pm and reach there at 5.30pm after a long walk from Adventist under the hot Sun with a friend that didn't even grunt throughout the whole way.
Counting the steps at the Waterfall Temple, loads of ice were carried up.
Many things happened that time
As it's a voluntary work, therefore nobody was actually sighing or even complaining.
Everyone was working under a very pleasant and willing manner. Air of laughter were carried along with the heavy ice towards the top of the temple.
I was made to understand that the ice was meant to quench thousands of thirst during the Thaipusam celebration on Sunday.
As the sky turning darker, we decided to make a move. However, we realise our bags were kept by my 'sir' and he is up on the temple while we were already at the basement.
So, I make a call and without thinking, my 'sir' went all the way down just to pass us the bags. To those who went there should know how tiring climbing the stairs, but my 'sir' did it ( climbing down and went up again) in his not very young age. I was very guilty but the best I can say is 'Thank you'.
When we were about to leave, suddenly the 2 seniors came with their motorcycle to fetch me and my friend back to Adventist. Realising that there's is no extra helmet, they insist us for the ride. For safety reason, I just ask them to put me and my friend near the end of the road- save us about 500m.
This may be one the most tiring day, however it is a day of friendship, a day of respect, and even a day of mankind.
The significance of Thaipusam seems to be much more meaningful than just loud music, chariots, and anything we always relate to.
It was a feeling I l have lost for the past 5 years after leaving my secondary school.
The natural feeling of friendship, respect and loving were no longer in the new environment of my high school.
I miss those days...
It's rather more tiring and exhausting, more blister, and more sweat droppings.
However, in the difficulties and hurdles I gone through, I understand the little meaning of life.
On Friday, I receive a sudden message from my old school teacher seeking for help to carry up loads of ice up to the Waterfall Temple.
I was partly holding back because I was extremely tired- after the motorbike test, went to school, and all the way to the Immigration Office.
But I believe my 'sir' wouldn't have call me if and only if he doesn't really need my help.
So, took a bus at 4pm and reach there at 5.30pm after a long walk from Adventist under the hot Sun with a friend that didn't even grunt throughout the whole way.
Counting the steps at the Waterfall Temple, loads of ice were carried up.
Many things happened that time
As it's a voluntary work, therefore nobody was actually sighing or even complaining.
Everyone was working under a very pleasant and willing manner. Air of laughter were carried along with the heavy ice towards the top of the temple.
I was made to understand that the ice was meant to quench thousands of thirst during the Thaipusam celebration on Sunday.
As the sky turning darker, we decided to make a move. However, we realise our bags were kept by my 'sir' and he is up on the temple while we were already at the basement.
So, I make a call and without thinking, my 'sir' went all the way down just to pass us the bags. To those who went there should know how tiring climbing the stairs, but my 'sir' did it ( climbing down and went up again) in his not very young age. I was very guilty but the best I can say is 'Thank you'.
When we were about to leave, suddenly the 2 seniors came with their motorcycle to fetch me and my friend back to Adventist. Realising that there's is no extra helmet, they insist us for the ride. For safety reason, I just ask them to put me and my friend near the end of the road- save us about 500m.
This may be one the most tiring day, however it is a day of friendship, a day of respect, and even a day of mankind.
The significance of Thaipusam seems to be much more meaningful than just loud music, chariots, and anything we always relate to.
It was a feeling I l have lost for the past 5 years after leaving my secondary school.
The natural feeling of friendship, respect and loving were no longer in the new environment of my high school.
I miss those days...
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