Time

Ding dong ding dong…there goes another month..

Btw, I am having my Chemistry Test tomorrow, am I not? So, what on Earth am I doing here?

Well, this is definitely not procrastination. I have stared at that Chemistry book for nearly an hour and now it’s just a resting of eyes, literally =).

Haih…time flies..whether it will be a good thing to happen or not.

My sister and Juniors finish her PMR…freedom is really all there  for them now!

SPM is coming so soon..as well as STPM..All the best to those going through it..Hope you people are still standing and breathing right there..haha hopefully this heal you a bit.

The Juniors in INTEC will almost complete their 1 semester in INTEC. Don’t say if they felt it short, me too! I still can capture every single thing in my MMS and now, I can even start preparing my luggage to fly anytime next year after June. Hooray!!!

Oo…Dharma Talk has come to its end  for this year. I will never forget the first time I encounter the Shah Alam Buddhist Temple from the intention to conserve electricity by using stairs all the way to the hospitality shown by the helpers in the café, administrators, and definitely the Sunday school teachers.

I really miss those time helping out in Sunday school. At first, I felt so small and terrified as I am so new to Buddhism, what some more to teach the children which are even better than me. However, I just totally forgotten before remembered again that Buddhism is alive in every man’s soul as how we breathe in and out without realising. That gave me some courage to go. Indeed, diminishing the worries actually let me enjoy and experience more.

This reminded me a storyoften retold in Buddhism.

At one moment when Buddha was meeting his disciples, he lifted a flower above his head and showed it to his students. At that moment, all his disciples felt so tense amusing why Buddha did that. However, out of all, a disciple of Buddha just smiled so sincerely to Buddha. Buddha replied his smile. And Buddha said, “The benefit of this flower has been transmitted to this student of mine”. Many Buddhist followers were still wondering what the metaphor was laid behind this story.

 Thinking excessively will put our mind thinking more about the intention more than to enjoy the flower

In fact, the message said was that usually human minds often think too much thus missing many joy and bliss just right in front of him. The lacking in mindfulness has put them into their self-delusion that leads to suffering and disasters. Not thinking too much and just focus at the subject will keep us learn and discover more.

Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu!!

 What is meant by searching for happiness when happiness is just right there in front of our eyes? Its the matter of appreciation to what is already there for us

What a nice feeling after get to write here since my last writing for my IELTS.

Cheers people out there and always have fun in life.

New room home make my journey in INTEC more conducive =)

(The photos used are taken during Bobby’s birthday. If you (the Birthday Boy) ever come across this, thank you for showing us a little part of meaning about life, I would say. Sincerely hope you and all my friends will soon discover what is already there waiting for them.)

I have a Dream

In my recent usual days, I will try to rise early without whirling around my mind dreaming and staring blankly on the ceiling.

But, I wasn’t today.

Don’t know because I was too tired after the whole day in INTEC, but I got a weird dream that prolong my sleep.

It was the dream going back to the time when I have conflicts with a bunch of Seniors those days in Unit 25.

OMG! Why should I suddenly dreamt of all that?

Urrgh..just as soon as I got awake, my head was so pain and my whole body was shaking shivering cold, to be signs of fever.

Then, I just feel so fatigue and reckless, not knowing what to do and feel like not waking up yet.

Getting back to that past moments was indeed a bitter one.

Everything was so fine even after the taking over of our new positions in AGM, but I know it was fine because I was just impersonating a role of ‘yes-man ‘leader that permit them to do anything that they want

After realising, many members and Juniors were harmed, by being humiliated with unnecessary work and burden, that wasn’t belong to them, I started to stood by the Juniors and members side.

Things start to get rotten.

I was boycott. I was given a hard time to reach agreement with them in selecting leaders, AP commander, INTRA Chairman as well not having co-operation in Unit’s events, camps and activities.

Life was more peaceful and together in Junior-ship

Quarrels, arguments, gossiping were running furiously between both parties and 2 camps were set up- the Senior and Junior.

It’s really hard to be a leader-for-all, especially when you face people that are clueless about their responsibilities and pledge to their service.

This is because when you correct them, you ended up causing them to rebel on you.

Even until today, nearly almost after 2 years, we lose contact and not knowing each other progress.

It’s very sad, every time when I met them. Knowing the fact we have known each other since Form 1 but yet, we act as strangers among us. Isn’t Unit the place to keep everyone together?

Yes, I admit I had lost friends! But those days when I am obliged to choose friends and members, I have chosen the latter.

This is what and why I am selected for, not for my personal interest.

No regrets..no looking back..no sighs..as I have did it my way!!

So, if today if there is anyone who will ask me, “Then, comment on your success and failure that you have brought throughout a term of leadership”.

The reply will be let the history to judge me, let the 284 members of the year to evaluate, as I have did what I supposed to do.

I was said to be the softest leader members have ever encounter, am I not? Yet, many things behind that have seen more of my conviction to decision no matter what

But for my future days, I hope to join back this string together, when both sides are ready, as I always treasure this friendship as strong as before.

The challenge is just- where to start with.

Don't let the good times in Unit be harm and polluted by POWER

This reminded me of the disputes in the recent grassroots.

But, just felt it will be beyond of my purpose if I would comment on it. I hope they will be wise enough and think for the Unit interest- and not otherwise.

Alright, back to my normal mode. Brush teeth and get ready for school tomorrow.

It’s just nice catching back memorable times- either it is bitter or sweet