I have a Dream

In my recent usual days, I will try to rise early without whirling around my mind dreaming and staring blankly on the ceiling.

But, I wasn’t today.

Don’t know because I was too tired after the whole day in INTEC, but I got a weird dream that prolong my sleep.

It was the dream going back to the time when I have conflicts with a bunch of Seniors those days in Unit 25.

OMG! Why should I suddenly dreamt of all that?

Urrgh..just as soon as I got awake, my head was so pain and my whole body was shaking shivering cold, to be signs of fever.

Then, I just feel so fatigue and reckless, not knowing what to do and feel like not waking up yet.

Getting back to that past moments was indeed a bitter one.

Everything was so fine even after the taking over of our new positions in AGM, but I know it was fine because I was just impersonating a role of ‘yes-man ‘leader that permit them to do anything that they want

After realising, many members and Juniors were harmed, by being humiliated with unnecessary work and burden, that wasn’t belong to them, I started to stood by the Juniors and members side.

Things start to get rotten.

I was boycott. I was given a hard time to reach agreement with them in selecting leaders, AP commander, INTRA Chairman as well not having co-operation in Unit’s events, camps and activities.

Life was more peaceful and together in Junior-ship

Quarrels, arguments, gossiping were running furiously between both parties and 2 camps were set up- the Senior and Junior.

It’s really hard to be a leader-for-all, especially when you face people that are clueless about their responsibilities and pledge to their service.

This is because when you correct them, you ended up causing them to rebel on you.

Even until today, nearly almost after 2 years, we lose contact and not knowing each other progress.

It’s very sad, every time when I met them. Knowing the fact we have known each other since Form 1 but yet, we act as strangers among us. Isn’t Unit the place to keep everyone together?

Yes, I admit I had lost friends! But those days when I am obliged to choose friends and members, I have chosen the latter.

This is what and why I am selected for, not for my personal interest.

No regrets..no looking back..no sighs..as I have did it my way!!

So, if today if there is anyone who will ask me, “Then, comment on your success and failure that you have brought throughout a term of leadership”.

The reply will be let the history to judge me, let the 284 members of the year to evaluate, as I have did what I supposed to do.

I was said to be the softest leader members have ever encounter, am I not? Yet, many things behind that have seen more of my conviction to decision no matter what

But for my future days, I hope to join back this string together, when both sides are ready, as I always treasure this friendship as strong as before.

The challenge is just- where to start with.

Don't let the good times in Unit be harm and polluted by POWER

This reminded me of the disputes in the recent grassroots.

But, just felt it will be beyond of my purpose if I would comment on it. I hope they will be wise enough and think for the Unit interest- and not otherwise.

Alright, back to my normal mode. Brush teeth and get ready for school tomorrow.

It’s just nice catching back memorable times- either it is bitter or sweet

Lifely Life

Let me make a very typical start by for writers who don’t blog after some time…

Owhh..it has been some time I have not blogged. Well, things just keep popping up making life so hectic and busy, that I can’t find any more time to write. Anyway, a good return and it’s so glad that I am back here.

=)

Since the last post, life has been so different. To be exact, semester 3 in INTEC was really not a laughing matter, as more datelines of assignments, quizzes, test etc stacking abundantly on my working desk while outing and lepak-ing are facing a very serious extinction.

However, I am glad because going through this under compression life reminds me to be ever-conscious and ready for whatever challenges..and I know it wasn’t a cliché, as I realise the difference in me as compared to before.

Let me sketch some sharing on moments on Dharma Talk. Despite after a month since DOC, the momentum in me is still going strong..or even stronger! I don’t know what urging me to pursue more, but I felt I have found something every time I attended a Dharma Talk.

Not forgetting, that will be the time getting along with Juniors. Kind of disappointed, most of my AML10 friends don’t really join me for Dharma Talk, to sleep more, and not interested are some popular reasons given.

However, it is enlightening to mingle around Juniors. Firstly, felt younger, all are still very youthful and energetic. Haha, it sounded as if I am old, soft and weak. Just felt disturbed when some tends to be so serious (maybe because talking with a senior wor)..konon yea! All are really matured, not little that gain my respect for who they are.

Besides, after shifting to Cemara, time with friends are also lesser. What to do?? All are so far away. However, I can see our bonding and ties still remain as before, since we still meet in college and hang out whenever possible.

It really makes me appreciate the moments we have, when realised that many great buddies not going to fly together after our term ended in INTEC.

This mid-sem break I expect it to be the week I will have ample of rest besides getting ready for the new coming academic session. However, due to unforeseen circumstances undergo by Tiong (though, I doubt that), I ended up bringing Tiong, a roommate, around Penang and Kedah.

Despite of all the condemns and insult given by him on every place and food he tried, I take that as a room of…..revenge when I visit Sibu again. Anyway, hopefully he had have enough fun..to an extend that is just enough that will make him not coming again =P

Thanks to Ming Khai for sharing my burden, by allowing us to spend a few days in Kedah. You might think I am joking, but getting to visit Tun Mahathir’s house, Tunku memorial, and the Muzium Padi, are some wishes that has been just gracefully fulfilled in the trip, thanks again.

Too bad, no chance to hike the Gunung Jerai for a breathtaking scenery and Sungai Petani ice-blended dessert which I promised and will definitely keep a fonder memory about Kedah.

Woww..this is the most random post I have written with no organisation and proper subject. Let it be..let it be..Life is just so unexpected… Awaiting for tomorrow and make it better than today!!